Ohh myyy gooosh!
Yeaah… today, as I was supposedly working my good old friend CORZ when she showed me this ad, and I went nuts… it was ohh sooo tiiight, I just had to post it.
That’s taking the whole dirty model style (Very Kate Moss’y’like)… to a whole new level, though the ad is a fake, it’s a mere reproduction IT TOTALLY ROCKS, IT HAS THE PURE ESSENCE OF ROCKIN IT!!
Daaang, I haven’t written in quite a while… but here goes a little bit of what’s been going on…
I have been a very good little girl lately… yes; I know it’s quite pathetic, at my nearly 20 years of age. But I have been able to control myself I’ve been able to go out with those bad influences, and not give in to the pleasures (haha)!! And that’s most definitely something that I thought I’d never be able to stop. To tell you the truth, I can’t discontinue all the partying, it’s in my blood, I have inherited that, but I have stopped giving in… letting myself lose it. As they say… one day at a time.
I feel kind of bad, because I didn’t see my highschool friends on Saturday, but I swear it was for a good cause, I had to prove to myself that I could take it…
I’m quite proud hahaha, but ohh well until the next time.
As It turns out; I had a wonderful time in Verac ruz. Ok, I drank tons, hahaha maybe the whole Alcohol Industry in Veracruz, o well, it was a challenge that I was obligated to complete. Though, I wasn’t really that optimistic about the whole journey, I kind of thought that I would just lose it… but I didn’t, I had a lot of self control, which why I’m pleased with myself, I proved that I could enclose a bit of self control.
I acted quite responsibly, I didn’t swim or go to the beach in an inconvenient estate (thought a couple of my roommates did). Now, the matter in question, the phrase “on trips you find out who your real friends are” is totally true, on trips, journeys, adventures, you get to see what people are really about, I got to confirm my suspiciouns about a certain “click of friends”. I realized that not only where they full of shit, and stupid, but they are also a group of voluble little fucks. I’m glad, I never really considered them my “friends”, so I’m not really that disappointed, thought it’s not always good to be right about people, in this case I was.
On the other hand, I had the opportunity to subsist with a few nice folks, who aren’t running around with bullshit, and of course, of those who really know how to party, hahaha, that makes me quite cheerful, optimistic with high spirits. Could it be, I just haven’t had much luck with folks at college? Could it be, there are more normal, polite, pleasant people than I thought?
There are a whole lot of things I really despise in life, and I can’t write about them because they would take a whole lot of space. Though if I had to choose the most despised, it would be giving explanations for my actions. You see, I don’t really find it “amusing” having to explain myself. The things I do, and the way I do them, is because I want to do them the way I do them! (hahaha sounds like a syllogism).
I have always known this about myself, though, today I went crazy, because she asked: “why are you going to the shop downstairs?” I spent over 10 minutes wasting my time explaining my homework and such… it was quite a draaaag. And that always happens to me, I tend to become frustrated with almost anyone, when I have explain my actions, see I don’t have problems with consequences and being held accountable for my actions, but I HATE… having to explain myself, I always have and always will.
Damn it, I’m mixed up in a crazy ass journey. A voyage which me and another 90 crazy ass college individuals will endure… and the closer it gets, the more nervous I become, I know from this moment; that I’ll be caught up in excess and lots of rockin’, the only way I know how… Caught up in nothing more than pure excess.
That worries me a little, since I become a little irresponsible in the wonderful company of others with of course, no responsibilities, since it’s not really a school trip, I’ll spend my moments quite wasted… many what if’s come to mind… What if I drown in the ocean? What if I don’t comeback in one peace? What if we get into an accident? Damn it, I have to stop thinking the worse of this trip, but wouldn’t you?? I mean 90 people reunited to drink, and get wasted, with no supervision, in another state and with 2 alcoholic 25 year olds in charge… hahahaha, ohh well…. Whatever happens happens, I’ve cheated fate my fair share of times, one more is a piece of cake! 
Before doing my homework, while the events are quite freshly saved in my memory, I shall proceed to explain, with excruciating detail all the crap that went down yesterday….
There was this party/concert, and I wasn’t in the mood for it, but oh well… I ended up going against my will (just kidding, I don’t do things against my will). After being exploited in the office, we went along, to get our party on… We arrived, at the time my dear friend Zamorano was signing his Mexican tunes. Some bitch friends that Edgar bought along were being completely rude to him, but oh well, I ignored their pathetic asses. Late on, Edgar, and “Puma[1]” got into an argument because Puma’s stupid ass told Edgar that his sister fucked nice, Edgar was about to kick his ass, but he was pulled away.
I kept drinking like there was no tomorrow. Around 8, a fight broke out, outside, Edgar kicked stupid Puma’s ass, but it didn’t end there, everyone was jumping in. Zamorano later on considered a good idea to piss Edgar off, so I kind of jumped in, in between them. I got kicked, because I jumped in... I had my "BROTHERS BACK" (my bro, being Zamorano)
The cops were called, and everything cooled down, though at that point I noticed… I HAVE VERY FEW FRIENDS AT COLLEGE, THANK GOD FOR MY HIGHSCHOOL FRIENDS WHO DON´T GET INTO FIGHTS OVER STUPIDITIES !!!!
The partying continued… and… I was just a taaaad tipsy, and this little “gentleman”, who considers hims
elf very smart, humorous and amusing, decided it was a good idea to flirt with me, the only problem is that, I DON’T LIKE HIM, and just as I told him “I don’t want problems because you why can’t you get it”[2] he responded, the most pathetic thing ever “I like you when you hate me”… Finally I was pulled away from him, by two great friends (Cora and Daniel). The night ended for me, I had to get home, because my family has trust issues with me, I went on home, and ended up walking (drunk) with Many for more than an hour, because there was no longer public transportation. It was one of the best night walks I’ve had in a long time; we talked a whole lot, though most things are quite private…. And that’s about it…. Have a good one; I must finish all of my essays… se ya….
PD. I finally had my 1st session with my shrink today, it was quite interesting.
[1] a skinny bitch ass, junkie, friend of Zamorano. Who I dislike, do to his inappropriate comments.
[2] I already have problems with a so called friend, because the bigot is in “love” with him, and this certain someone, says that I’m an alcoholic and every time I can, I flirt with him. And that I can’t be trusted, pff hahaha stupid ass people who are impressed by his “big words”.
Lately, I’ve been out of tune at the prestigious Department of Politics and Social Science. I guess it’s all due to fact that I was expecting a great semester, and it turned out a pretty crappy one, I’m tired of the philosophical input in a major that ISN’T PHILOSOPHICAL!!! I have been thinking toughly and; I really like the carrier, I just don’t agree with most of the teachers and their beliefs. I’m going to try rigorously to complete excellent essays, because I’ve really been slacking off with mediocre papers and such. I’m seriously going to try harder, and try to lower just a tiny notch the excess lifestyle I endure, that way I’ll know what the real problem is, it might not even be the teachers, and it could even be a 100% me. It’s worrying since, it cost me hellas to get here, and I can’t just throw it all away.
