The YazZzzZ Experience

Im finally a Licensed Professional.

2011-12-05T17:38:00.003-06:00

I have a license to.... practice my degree,

That makes me of 7% of the Mexican population with a license to practice their degree.... so I'm sorry, I won't be settling for less, mearly because it cost me months of my life, and years of studying so if anyone here in mexico wants me to work for a couple of pesos, sorry, I'm most certainly NOT doing it.

So the adventure begins, real life starts, and a full time job starts.... it has been a pleasure.

This might be goodbye from this blog, who knows. COLLEGE LIFE IS OFFICIALLY OVER WITH!!

The grande return.

2011-06-14T14:18:00.003-05:00

Well, it has been an interesting 24 weeks overall. I have learned a lot about people in general.

After the grand escape I have bragged for months about, AKA break from all of this, I have realized that time does change things. But the most valuable things stay the same, it's the small insignificant things that change, the important ones might evolve but for good.

I have returned to the motherland, filled with optimistic pressure to finish my dissertation and yahllah -one of many Arabic words I've learned in the exchange program- getting a respectable job. It is time, this will be my last semester working at my University.

New York was a blast, filled with adventures, that is my city indeed, it has everything I love, politics, economics, multicultural, art, crazy folks, 24 hour subway, partaaays, hot men in the subway, and great views. This trip had it all, drunken craziness, art, sightseeing, funny moments, rockstar moments, limitless possibilities, adventures, randomness, dangerous stuff going on in the subway, shopping, etc.

The most important thing I have learned is that there is a way to avoid getting into painful or uncomfortable situations, we are not victims, we many times put ourselves in situations that in the end will be very painful. And I have made myself the promise of no longer doing that with a certain someone. When it's over, it's over and that's it.... it all has a time stamp, and ending, and expiration date and we have to live and respect it we can't prolong things, or make them last as much as we want to.

and I end with a personal quote, "If you claim to have a life, live it, don't be incongruous about it..." YMC (that is me).

juuuuayyy....

2011-04-19T04:32:00.005-05:00

Why is it when everything is going to hell, when a lot of things are screwed over, you show up in that precise moment, are willing to listen to me, to tell me I'm right, and to even make jokes on how right I am??

That's another reason why I love you even more, it doesn't matter if it's 3 AM on a Tuesday, you listen and comfort me. You are the voice of reason when everything is just a pile of idiotic crap. I know you have done your fare share of things that have hurt me, I know I gave you power over me, I know I have also hurt you. But in the end, it doesn't matter how far you are, the time of day, you are always there, you have always been there.

You want to help humanity, you want to get rid of the crazies and the dumb, you show me how right I am. I know I can't expect things from people who don't seem to deserve it, but the fact that your voice soothes me, is worth it all the way.

---- to be continued------

Piracy.....

2011-03-11T16:59:00.007-06:00

I have been analyzing the whole "copywrite" thing in the US throughout these last couple of months.... there has been numerous cases that pertain the piracy issue in the US. Like the guy that got finned over half a million dolla, for downloading some songs over the P2P network limewire (which eventually made the network shut down).

This reminds me of the time of Napster.... it was a great time to live, at 13 with a telephone modem computer, with AOL... good times, yes. But that didn't last.

The matter in question is, why can't people upload their files to share without making a profit off it. It's just like sharing a dvd to a friend so he can watch a movie, I'm not making a profit off it. That criteria should be used in these cases. If I upload a cd I bought so people can download it and enjoy it as much as I do, they should be able to, I'm not charging them.

For example, the latest controversy is upload servers like Megaupload, Rapidshare and Hotfile... they are really making a profit with the stuff that's uploaded, but the users aren't. The scenario is painted like so: individual A, uploads to server B content C..... individual D finds the content on the server and downloads it, but the server B gives you the option to have an account to download the content at a faster speed, so technically they aren't making a profit with the content but they are with a "service". Although in most cases, user A and D get penalized because of uploading and downloading the content, being that they aren't making any money off it. I find it quite unfair.

Don't get me wrong, I know the music industry, movie industry and tv productions are suffering, but seriously you can't blame piracy for that, that's because these industries have been trying the same models for selling content, and it's getting old for users. You really don't want to see these industries affected, but there's technological advances that allow you to record TV shows?? Really, so who's fault is it??

You should have thought of that before, because like many things in technology, there's no way back. I love technology, I will always be for it, no matter what Herbet Marcuse says in the Unidimensional Man, it is a sign of progress, and information is power. Society and it's laws are always behind technology, if you really want to regulate you have to be a lot more on the verge of the newest things. And that goes out to the governments, industries and tech companies.... so quit complaining......

Things keep moving....

2011-03-07T17:27:00.003-06:00

It's been a while, I'm thinking of shutting down this blog because, well I don't write in it as much. I've used it to vent a lot, but now.... I just don't see the point. Ohh well, let's see, I decided not to write in February (for the most part) because, the month sucks, but now that we're in March I can do so.

Several important things have happened. First and foremost... my high school mentor died, and I was here, once again not being able to go to the service (it just brings back memories of me not being able to say goodbye). I can honestly say, that a lot is lost without him.... he was a wonderful, talented man.

On a better note, things are good here, I like it, I don't lie I do miss my life in Mexico, specially the good people in my life there. Here it's ok, but it's never the same. I talk to my friends back home as much as I can, but it's never the same. I was able to see Robyn LIVE!!! That was a wonderful experience, since I'm not going to Coachella.

The NYC plan is on, we just have to figure out where we're going to live for 15 days!!! (I'm looking forward to reuniting with the tripod... May 20th in the airport, it's going to be crazy).

On a better note, I'm better now, I've been moving on from... "my postmodern" relationship... I'm not as intense about things with him as I was when I got here, I'm starting to forgive myself for my stupidity. That's a good thing. I know it seems like I always talk about him, but he's an important part of my life that I can't ignore and let go just like that.

I do good in school, I find it easier than back home. I have good times and drinking freenzys what more can I ask for.....

Till the next time.

Angry people do stupid things

2011-02-06T15:20:00.003-06:00

Well, I've been living here for a month now, it's great. I have a good time, I'm getting my dissertation done and going to class. I get to talk to my friends almost everyday. New York is closer by the minuet. I have a wonderful roommate.

I do like US college life, even if it's in a small town. It's quite nice, good installations, lots of activities (yes, by that I mean parties). I could seriously get use to this. I know I will hate going back to "my home country". But ohh well, that's the way life is.

On the other hand, things didn't end good at all with a guy, and I must confess that I have been angry with him and with myself since I got here. No one had to prove anything to anyone but he decided to prove something, and he sure as hell did it!! And now, we don't speak, and I'm pissed as hell. And that's when anger makes me do stupid things that only screw me over, no one else but me. It's really pathetic that out of anger I screw myself over, and more so when it's due to my anger to a guy who's having the time of his life.

I really must get that part of my life in order.

And I insist, February even though it's only 28 days long, it manages to be the crappiest month eveeer. Every crappy thing in my life has happened in February. A bad thing you name it, February.... so I'm not a fan of this month. I just hope no more bad news comes my way!!

Well, enough procrastinating for one day!! It is Super Bowl Weekend, and the PACKS are up for the title so I must get to it.

Complications....

2011-01-03T16:07:00.005-06:00

When I started this whole plan to escape, it's something I've always wanted, and as it turns out I need it. I convinced myself it would be the best thing, I for self growth, adventure, getting away from some crappy people that were surrounding me (from school), and getting over you; hell it had a lot to offer.

I made up a perfect plan, I convinced cognitively every part of me. That it was for the best.

And I began a process to get over you, it was great, but that lasted about 2 seconds, because in some way you attracted me right back to you. And not just in some way, but in the way that showed me that I'm important in your life. And theres nothing better than the feeling that you matter in someones life, and better yet, in the person you loves life. I'm all for the adventure, even though your irreplaceable, your the best guy in my life.

Although I know I'm doing the right thing, I must leave, I'm not turning back, I'm not leaving any space for regret. I need to move on, maybe the distance will let that happen, or maybe it will show both of us how much we may or may not need each other, there's a lot of uncertainty, and that no longer bothers me, what ever happens, will happen, and there's no inhuman force that can stop it.

I know there's a lot to gain from all this, theres a lot to learn, to rethink; but there's nothing to cry over or e upset about. It's all good. Maybe it wasn't our time, or it will never be -who knows- and there's no use wasting my time or other peoples time debating that.

The truth of the matter is that you can't put your life on hold for someone, it's not that easy. That's a selfish choice I made and learned a long time ago thanks to extraordinary circumstances.

Goodbye....

2010-12-27T12:59:00.002-06:00

As you should know I will soon be leaving all this behind, finally after months and months of worrying and working out the paperwork and everything.... I will have a great escape in less than 15 days!!! It will be a grand jasminaen escape.... and I will have a lot to say about my adventure.

The only bad thing is that this whole escape changes a lot of things that could be....

but oh well no more bitching, hell, IT'S GONNA BE A CRAZED 2011 (hells better than '10), that I can assure. Have a good one people, bring in the '11 the best way you can.

Miscellaneous.

2010-10-28T20:31:00.003-05:00

The title is because there's a lot to express.

First of all I have discovered that I love it when a certain guy (not just any guy) tells me he misses me!!! Yes, yes, yes!!

Ok, so today I was approved by the Department of State to go to the US for 6 months and go through the whole exchange program, I was this close to getting rejected, but thanks to the smart advice, I was accepted. I will not be an illegal immigrant when my visa expires, I promise, no worries.

On the other hand, I have found the best quote for all the mediocre people, that have once been mentioned in this blog: "The difference between a successful person and others is not a lack of strength, not a lack of knowledge, but rather a lack of will."

A proper introduction

2010-10-18T18:29:00.010-05:00

Lately I have been listening to a whole lot of ROBYN, and I found the best way to

start a curriculum:

ROBYN- Curriculum Vitae

ROBYN (in her jacuzzi): Why you stupid I told you no eating in my jacuzzi....

(Over the phone): Listen: I want rain, thunder and some hells bells... Just do it

You can't stop it You can't escape it You can't turn it off

So I'd appreciate your kind consideration in this matter

Sir or Mam would you please turn it the fuck up

Do it

Unleashed in the eastBest dressed in the west

Sorted in the north

Without a doubt in the south

The queen of queenbees

Lioness of Juda

Phoenix from the ashes risen

Undefeated undisputed featherweight champion

on all five continents

World record holder with a high score of two gazillion in Tetris

Two-time recipient of the Nobel prize for super foxiest female ever

and war time consigliere to the Cosa NostraShe split the storm, invented the x-ray, the cure for AIDS, and the surprise blindfold greeting

She performed and choreographed the fights for Bruce Lee in Enter the Dragon

and Game of death and still does stunt doubles for Jackie Chan on the weekends

She suckerpunched Einstein, outsmarted Ali, and even outsuperfreaked Rick JamesShe's the founder and CEO of Konichiwa Records

The most decorated professional field operative in the industry

and in the streets

With a perfect track record since kindergarden where she used to

whoop schoolboy ass

She's listed in section 202 of the United Nations Security Act of 1979

as being too hot to wear tight sweaters on international airspace

In this world of tension pressure and pain

she is known by men and women of all origin and faith

for her wisdom, compassion, and relentless

determination in the quest to get paid

I WANT TO DO IT ALL

Finally...... after months of changes and waiting.

2010-08-20T20:48:00.005-05:00

I'm almost there, after being tricked...... taken back and forth (like the operator please song) from the University of Wisconsin- Madison, Wisconsin- River Falls, Wisconsin Whitewater, Wisconsin-Platteville, Wisconsin-Parkside, Wisconsin-Eau Claire, Wisconsin-Stout, Wisconsin-Oshkosh, or Wisconsin-Superioir.

The final tolls are in, and I must wait for the ac

ceptance letter from.... tadaaa WISCONSIN UNVIERSITY OF WHITEWATER.... yeahhh the second best option after Madison (which was not part of the agreement between my home school and the Wisconsin College system).

¡I present to you the WHITEWATER HAWK!

¡and the Whitewater GYM!

it ends once again....

2010-08-14T17:18:00.004-05:00

I gave my self a long vacation from my blog, because things have been getting "intense" in my life. First of all, I have been sloppy, and procrastinating with my dissertation(chan chan chan), I'm not planning on changing my protocol on title, but I have been quite lazy and I haven't written any of the three chapters.

But hell thats another story. I solemnly swear I'm going to start writing this week. And I'll be updating on my subject.

Intense people shouldn't have social online networks (Twitter, Facebook, etc.) for everyones' sake. See the thing begins when someone wants to stalk another person, and starts adding friends friends, and stalking pictures, and the worse part of all: interpreting things on those pictures, statuses, relationships, etc. It's quite sick for the intense person, and for the people around him or her.

Just yesterday, on once again an all night drinking frenzy a couple of friends and I came to serious conclusions about certain types of peoples attitude. We were extremely judgmental towards people who fake and don't say how they feel. We understand that you can't always be a cynic, like at work, or when you're 40, but what if your 20 and you can't even tell someone off because you don't want people (a person whom you don't depend or need anything from) to hate you. It's better to "be liked" and keep your thoughts to yourself?? Grow some balls please, for your own good.

It became totally pathetic, when a friend told us a tale, of a guy telling him: "we also wish XX person has a bad time in her personal life, but we don't say it, we just think it" Why not say it!!! Screw it right??? I don't understand the satisfaction in keeping things inside, but I get the satisfaction in being cynical.

my summer so far.....

2010-07-05T23:09:00.005-05:00

As you all know, I write a whole lot about my experiences with other people, such as.... afro -pubehair, the queen of drama and 'loves of her life', Tony Stark, my gold ol' friends etc.

Well, after a good start to yet another summer vacay, time when I can be free, and stop reading Habermas, and Maarek, to read, my most recent addiction: COMIC BOOKS!! hahah I read like 40 Ironman comics in 2 days (yes, I know.... how very poorly of me, I'll never be an intelectual, damn it -sarcastically-).

If I have learned something over the past few weeks, is that some people reside in a constant Twilight Zone (not the vampire saga), this zone is quite similar to the old tv series (because it's about people who live in the same space-time continuous as ordinary people), only that in this "zone" people don't react and act as the majority does, and they believe that there behaviour is quite norma, like taking advantage of others, or manipulating people with low self-esteem!! hahaha, it's fun

to observe it, but I don't think it would be acceptable to live it, but that makes a whole lot of people happy, just like my friend... but anywho that's another story.

And today oh so casually I was AIMing with a friend, and we came to the conclusion that WE MUST write a TV series, with English humor about an office, we would include all of the people we have met these last 4 tortuous years, then (me fantasizing in my own little Twilight Zone) we could win a Golden Globe and than all those people who inspired us!!! The mediocre, pathetic, neurotic, psicotic, sociopaths...... "Thank you all, in the end, the torture was worthwhile... you inspired our award winning comedy!" hahahahaha

one can dream!!! hahaha

My type of guy....

2010-06-15T00:23:00.002-05:00

If you are observant, and an analyst you might have noticed that I'm extremely picky with people, and men aren't excluded from that picture, and combining my stubbornness, with my cynicism, and my love for nerdy things (like comic books, movies, computers, star wars, etc). I have always know the perfect man for me is: TONY STARK!!!

And yes, (in the movie story line, I'm aware the comic has a different line) I would be the "Pepper Pots to Tony Stark", why??? you ask??

The answer is easy:

I love a challenge (a powerful man), I enjoy cynicism coming from a man. Brains is a must, as is strategic behavior, alcoholism, and a constant party mood.

And that is why, Tony Stark is the perfect man for me!!!

Hey, at least I know my "fate"

2010-06-14T23:55:00.007-05:00

I'm not one to believe in the supernatural or "that things happen for a reason", due to the fact that there will always be the unexplainable.

Ok, I wanted my friggin' answer so bad -after weeks and weeks of being in the LOST limbo-, I finally got it: I'll be leaving for the exchange program until January 2011, (damn it, I wanted to get the hell away from here as soon as possible), but there's certain upside to that , I'll be able to catch up on my thesis.

Which is actually a good thing, since I plan on graduating very soon, and hopefully getting a respectable job!!!

On the other hand, I must add recent events, and life lessons to this post, first of all, I find my self quite pissed off, due to treason, from a so called "friend", whom decided to open his friggin mouth and screw me over, for a chick, who'll just use him for information (about me).

I should've know this would happen, specially when someone is "surprised" by 'glamor'. Let that be a lesson to all, don't ever trust anyone who could give up a friendship "for shinny glamor, that'll never be his-hers", for the pose that is.

She had nothing on me, I was free, and now I'm more tied up than ever, "due to 'adverse' circumstances"... but bitch-please I can assure you this won't end well for any one of us 3.

Going on with "news" hahaha, I have officially become a fan of TRUE BLOOD (after seeng the 1st ans 2nd season in one week)!!! hahaha yeaah baby yeaah haha (all thanks to rob.rues).

Those who know me, know that I loooooveee TV series hahaha, and I have been know to see 'em all...... but this one is a very well elaborated story, filled with interesting characters, various subjects (hate, rascism, sex, love, drugs, etc), it's a tought story with a good production, I just hope that Twilight and Vampire Diaries fans will someday appreciate TRUE BLOOD way more!!

And on top of everything .....

2010-05-27T21:53:00.005-05:00

Ok, so who knows what’s going to happen?? There's a situation with my exchange status, and due to ineptitude ( the person in charge of my exchange sent the papers 3 weeks after I turned them in; allowing the limit go by) and I no longer know if I’m leaving in August or January. I’m going to ight for the right which is “rightfully” mine!!! Hahaha to go in August.
But oh well, I’m confident it will all be resolved (although I’m trying not to go mad because once again I’m surrounded by douche-bags).
On the other hand, this semester is almost ovaaaa, yeaaahhh..... Wooooo haha and thinking it all over, I have learned that out of 4 classes (2 a week); which means 8 classes a week I attended 1 –out of 8-!! Hahaha why is that??? Well, my theory is: what you haven't learned in 4 years you won't learn in the "last" semester!!!
On the other hand, I enjoyed much more being and helping out while learning from my buddies from production or journalism, than with the nonintellectuals in political communication.
And as it turns out... I'm the "mastermind" behind the "future" attacks in the final presentation...the most pathetic thing about that is that I couldn't care less, I haven't even gone to my own group meetings.
Yes, that what happens when you combine: ignorant, mediocre, so called "intellectuals" in a kindergarden “competition" they try to compete with people that couldn't care less, it's much more pathetic, and they “create” competition in their minds.

"You know it makes one feel rather good deciding not to be a bitch".LADY BRETT ASHLEY FROM ERNEST HEMINGWAY’S ..... OR IN MY CASE, NOT GIVING A FLYING RATS ASS!!

Having the time of my life.....

2010-05-16T21:06:00.005-05:00

I don't know why, but lately I have been having the time of my life!!! I have been to limitless parties, hahaha it has been a blast, I have a couple of friends to thank for that. Due to a confidentially agreement their names can not been disclosed.

There are things in life we must all get over.

But I no longer care, as Fox would say "I'm leaving anyways". "These streets will make you feel brand new".

My life philosophy

2010-05-09T16:54:00.002-05:00

found on a bumper sticker........

I'm sorry, I'm just not the type person to put up with that....

2010-05-05T19:57:00.004-05:00

We can be sorry for lots of things, being unfair, being intolerable, having little patience. But there are times when you give people what they have coming, there's nothing you have to be sorry for.

And here goes the hard question, what happens when you can't clear the air, you can't even give an explanation for you actions or your "little patience"??

When you know that talking this over will just make the bomb blow.... and a hell storm will come over yourself? I can't tolerate the fact that someone does something that would piss anyone off, and later on when you try to clear things up -and be specific on what pissed you off-... the person acts all innocent, and in denial while victimizing themselves, that type of shit makes me lose "my little cool". (I say little because I've been know to lose my cool and be impulsive -although I never regret it, because they surely had it coming).

On the other hand, it's quite cool when someone apologizes for shit they pulled 6 years ago, it's quite gratifying, because once again I was right when I told a person off: "One day you'll understand that you can't pull this shit on people, and you'll regret it all your life".

Taaadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.... this person, got far more than they deserved. (Much more than they deserved, but hell, it's life).

When you're right your right!!!

2010-04-25T19:58:00.002-05:00

I know I'm very arrogant and pedantic. I can't help it, I enjoy my arrogance, and it's not something that'll change soon. Why???? Well, the answer is quite easy, I'm usually right, -about certain things-. I was right about the stupid bitch afro )#/$%$("&)!(1) and my good ol' friend had to admit it last night -at a party of course-. Because to my expierience, there's no better place to clear the air, like in a party.

He told me me: "Yes, he's not a friend, yes, he's opportunistic, and yes I don't trust him", That phrase alone made me the happiest person in the party. and I blurted out: "Was he worth us fighting over???". He quickly responded: "No he wasn't".

I know I don't have many talents, but I'm good at pin pointing people that are shitty. And I love pointing it out, and not swallowing my words.

(1) Story that I promised to tell, way back in: Another..., but it's not really worth a space in this blog. He's not even worth a space in this world hahaha.

I'm leaving, but it's all "extra-official"

2010-04-21T20:17:00.006-05:00

Yes, the looong wait, the insomnia, headaches, etc; and that's what happens when I live in doubt and uncertainty. But thanks to the truth, thats all gone now

Well, I guess I can speak freely through here, I'm leaving the country, after a lot of cryptic situations, and acting all secretive about it, I can finally say it.... I'M GOING FAR FAR AWAY FROM HERE -as Gaga and Honey Bee would say-.

Needless to say, I already know that a ton of bullshit will be said about me leaving "she was totally helped out by her teachers, she blah blah blah". But you know the best thing about it, aside from the fact than no one beat my TOEFL scores, and GPA is that: I'm leaving, and my university is going to give me a wonderful scholarship to study abroad, and you people can't do shit about it, so you can just die of liver failure.

On that same key, I have thought of a wonderful scholarship foundation: "Funds for people in need to escape and be in denial away from their hometowns". Imagine that, you have an ex- you can't get over, or a crush you can't seem to break, or you simply want to get away, we'll fund you.... you would just have to write a very good statement of purpose, explaining why you must get away from, the best cases -or might I say the worst ones- win the scholarships!!!

by the way

2010-04-18T19:51:00.002-05:00

After the 4 am lesson I no longer owe anybody anything, and there's no better feeling than that. I can finally close the "Abraham Lincoln" file..... Thank y'all who helped me out.

Constant Change??

2010-04-18T13:30:00.010-05:00

Throughout the years, you realize that things can change pretty quickly, from friendship to hobbies, to points of view, but now I realized, that's not my case. Sure, I've grown, but I think and act the same way I did 5 yeas ago, the same things still piss me off, I make the same mistakes, I'm still a huge cynic, and bullshit about the same stuff. I don't know if that's a good thing or bad thing.

Those that make me more congruent? Or does that only mean "that I grew up so fast" and just sat there.

On the other hand, I'm starting to get nervous, because in a week I'll know if my life will drastically change during the next semester, yes.... I'll know in a week if I'll be leaving the country for something better, and most importantly I'll be leaving, my god awful classmates behind, the bull that surrounds me on a daily basis.

I really do need this break, -I hope that destiny understands that- it might make me move on, since I'm kind of stuck in a "rut", and it's starting to feel so god darn comfortable, and that's too scary. And you know why!!!!!

To all my friends, the true ones, the ones that will actually be happy for me please wish me luck, and to all those who are going to bullshit there way into talking crap about someone else's good fortune, screw y'all you envious, mediocre, useless pieces of crap!! hahaha

In a month......

2010-03-21T14:38:00.003-06:00

This next month will feel eternal, I'm going to wait until the end of April, and I'll know if I'm staying or going. I must admit it's quite scary.... I mean I've already turned in all the papers in other to leave the "crap" hole(1) for about 5 months... some people are happy for me and wishing me the best, and others, not precisely.

But Ohhh well, the only thing that counts is my happiness... and my future, but above all my piece of mind. I know that some folks think "why the hell is she going to leave in the last semester, and miss out on the whole 'graduation' thang"....

The answer is quite simple, the few people who I care about, and I know I'll keep in touch with, I know that they feel the same way. And on the other hand, I already had the whole prom experience, with people I care about, people I love, people I go out with, true friends; and that's definitely how I feel about the shitty ass classmates. I don't feel like having a "hypocrite" experience when I graduate, hell I've been congruent for 4 years, and my incongruity isn't going to start in the last days of college life. o the best excuse is to "be out of the country".

If people weren't so envious, and frustrated I would care a little more, and even help out, but people, like such are crap, and that's the biggest lesson I have learned in college, it's the bigger picture and much more insightful than what I ever learned in a classroom. Most of the people I've come across aren't worth it!!!! Puff I can finally say it without feeling guilty! hahahaha Because it's true!! hahaaha

(1) When I say crap hole I'm referring to all the crappy people I'm forced to socialize with, and I try so hard to ignore.... but my hateful attitude is much bigger than myself. And those people (99.9%) know who they are. Because they feel the same way.

Career Move..... Crisis Managment!

2010-03-07T12:25:00.001-06:00

One of the best teachers I’ve ever had throughout my college career once wisely said: “If you are ever going to do something illegal never admit it. If you say you’re going to do something illegal, you must deny it, if you are stupid enough to right it down, you must deny it, but even worse, if you are incredibly stupid enough to write it down, and sign it…..DENY IT UNTIL YOU DIE!!!"

I have never been one to deny things, but….. There are certain “special circumstances”.

I must admit, I’m quote surprised that a certain event has just had its three year anniversary, and things are looking up, I didn’t get all pitiable and pathetic.

Nice Hangover Sunday y’all.

I love being cryptic.....

2010-02-22T19:22:00.004-06:00

Cryptic and non specific is something I enjoy specially when it's about the "uncomfortable flourecent-pink elephant" in the room, that takes up space but no one wants to discuss and deal with it.

"It is what it has always been, it will always be, and I can't help it....."

I bet no one can interpret the true meaning of that!!!!

everything we do is to avoid the inevitable....

2010-02-22T19:08:00.008-06:00

Last Monday, I was at Wendy's enjoying my double bacon-cheeseburger, and talking to a couple of friends, a very adept friend told us "everything we do is to avoid death, from eating to sleeping" and I added "we live trying to avoid death, but it's the only thing that's written since the moment we are born".

It's true, but that doesn't mean we can't enjoy our time here..... and there's definitely nothing better to enjoy our time being intoxicated with happiness.

And on Thursday, talking to another friend we concluded that some of us live daring death, and we might just be the last ones to leave!! That's how ironic life can be, and that's precisely whats to love about it.

But what's more ironic??? Living it to avoid it??? or Living it daring it???

By the way, after almost 22 years, I have found my true calling: teaching lessons to all those ignorant cowards, who think they are all that and more. My job is to show them "ohh contraire my friend" hahaha.

And just to avoid all my "lemas", I must add, that I'm almost done paying my dues!!! Let that be a lesson to all: when you need the money, you work your ass off for it, you can't wait for it to land from some airplane full of cash.

Another one bites the dust!!!

2009-12-14T13:54:00.002-06:00

Yes people.... one step closer, one more shot down.

Never the less this semester got a bit more complicated, due to "extraordinary" matters, this semester went form plagiarism, to a lot of debts, to deceit, to getting drunk with some teachers, to screwing things up with a great guy, some friendships weakened, others got stronger; hell it had it all.

And yet I'm not one to complain, but needless to say, it wasn't my favorite, but I learned a lot of life lessons, the kind I love!!

Next semester will get more interesting, I'll become a teachers asis., which will make me furfill my mision in life, and become a total biatch, towards people like "afro[1]".

[1] A little big mouth son of a #/&)!, I'll complement on this in another post.

Monday 4 AM lesson.........

2009-11-06T20:28:00.001-06:00

Monday 4 AM lesson

If you have been irresponsible enough to do something quite stupid and idiotic, you must be responsible enough to make amends

You can't put a time stamp on love......

2009-10-14T20:22:00.003-05:00

Trying to control love and time, is impossible; people who think that they can control either or worse, BOTH have issues.

I know it would be great if we could decide when, and how long we fall in love, or better yet who we love and put a time stamp that says "in 3 months this will expire"; that would just be great. But things aren't like that, life isn't like that. It would most certainly make life easier. Imagine that, you could say "I'm going to fall out of love of this son of a bitch in 2 weeks". But ohh hell no!!! When the going gets though, your still loving.

Time works the same way.... I learned the worst way, that time isn't a reusable o recyclable resource. You can't control time, you can't waste it, you can't leave things "for tomorrow". We can't leave things like that, tying lose ends, both time and love, we can't leave love for another time, we can't have a feeling and not act on it, that will only lead to self destruction. And I guess that's what's going on with me.... oh well, it's the price I pay, for being me and being stupid. Peace out y'all.

Madonna to Lady Gaga

2009-10-13T20:17:00.002-05:00

Madonna: What the hell is a disco stick?

Lady Gaga: You know what it is!!!

To hell with it.....

2009-10-11T21:19:00.003-05:00

I'm no longer going to give explinations for not writting frecuently, because it's always the same damn thing.

Moving on, that's the attitude I've been trying to accomplish, but I can't... it's becoming pathetic. I start bulshitting... "ohh hell no, I want nothing to do with him" and 2 seconds later, he has me in the palm of his hand, and he knows it... I've lost my self respect.

It's kind of what out president has done with the Federal Electric Company, by liquidating it, and getting rid of the corrupt unions. But in my case, I can't get rid of my own corruption. All of this under the scheme "it's better to find out, than never know" I've sure as hell done a lot of stupid things, but o well.... at least I know, the problem is that I'm still there waiting.

On the upside, I had a wonderful time last night.... a night full of excess, just the way I like it.

Your Heart....

2009-09-07T16:11:00.003-05:00

I carry your heart

I carry your heart with me( I carry it in
my heart)I am never without it (anywhere
I go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling)
I fear
not fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) I want
no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

I carry your heart (I carry it in my heart)!!!!

-E.E. Cummings-

This morning didn't start out all that well....

2009-09-04T11:14:00.011-05:00

The following events ocurred right after the events of last night (since I didn't go partying).

Riiing Riiing Riiing..... 5:30 AM: My 1st thought this morning: "Damn it, I gotta get to my 7 AM class to turn in a paper".... (flashfoward through the morning routine) before I'm out the door, my sister yells at me for a reason as idiotic as her lazy ass"That's why 'he' will never be your boyfriend".
Scene 2.... I get early to school, for the 1st time in this semester. I even run into Veneronni, (puff a wounderful teacher) and we talk about school, academia and my area, he congradulates me for being in political communication. At that point I thought, puff..... what a great way to start my day. HOW VERY WRONG I WAS!!!

Scene 3: I sit outside my classroom on the 3rd floor; and time goes by... 7:15 AM "Hmm no one has gotten to class, how wierd.. I ask Joaquin through sms...." he responds: "the teacher sent an email last night that she won't come to class". DAMN IT!! I walk out the building screaming curse words.

Scene 4, ok I calm down I get to the office and I start working -thinking ok, I'll get a head start-. Scene 5: I had to burn an international advertising festival (we have the original DVDs that the Spanish Embassy lent us) I go to desk were the cds were stored, and what do you know the DVD falls down under the drawer and I spent an hour trying to get the original DVD out. Sudeenly I stik my hand underneath the drawer, and my friggin hand get's stuck. I can't move, my cel is too far to reach.... (funny scene) don't you think. I was a half hour stuck, kicking the hell outta the desk, until I just shut my eyes and pull my hand out (It still hurts).

Scene 5: finnally I start burning the dvds, and while doing so, I went to organize the goddamn newspapers that my boss had left out for me.

Scene 7: I finish my work, my boss comes trought the door with more newspapers. And right now I'm thinking "ohh hell no, I'm not going through the whole newspaper ordeal"

I'M IN DESPERATE NEED OF A DRINK!!!

Damn it.... bright side.

2009-09-03T21:52:00.008-05:00

Ugh, I missed a reunion with my highschool budies!! Damn it, I'm quite pissed... this semester had started out wonderful, with great subjects, only the necesary and good friends not more, none the less, good teachers -although I don't agree with them always-, I'm actually learning the Machiavelian theories towards obtaining unlimited power. And today of al days, a teachers asistant today alarmed us all with a heavy homework assingnment for tommorow. So I decided not to go out, and do the responsihing, the thing a true college student would do and sudenly at 8:45 PM, the teachers asis... informed us all: "I won't be going tommorow to pick up your asignments, it's posponed until tuesday".

And yes, It was too late to go out, I didn't have a ride... damn you EVE.... I will get my revenge.

Ohh well, on the bright side: The other day I was thinking, and I learned yet again one more leason. Sometimes in life you expect certain things of people -either positive or negative- and sudenly, you know what will go down, but still; what you predicted happends and you have the "guts" to act surprised. It's sad, sometimes you don't want to be right, but hell if you can't help it what the hell. I still believe some bulshit will end up drowning shitty people and if not, well...... there's always other ways: VENGANCE FILLED WAYS!

So here goes the new motto: "It doesn't come as a suprise to me, what comes as a suprise is that it suprises you. Hell let's not act suprised it's what you were ready for".

pd. As it turnes out, some people involved in the whole "short-pineapple" ordeal I talked about a couple of enteries ago, think they're son snide... and they can get away with anything, but we're always one step ahead of your neurotic-mediocre ass!!!

Lyrics of my life….

2009-08-10T00:16:00.012-05:00

Life to me has always been full of mottos and phrases. It just so happens that I have found in some songs the phrases in which I can base my life. I can’t take complete credit for them.

Although I have some originals, they are just phrases, they can’t be made into songs:

“Love is not forever and not for everyone”

“Attitude it’s no motto it’s most certainly a way of life… so start living and stop BITCHING!!!”
“Time… is a resource we don’t have at our disposal, it’s not reusable”
“When I die, I want to do it with the less regrets possible”
“Rum and Rock line After Line, till life tears us apart”
"It's easy to be a communist when you have nothing lose".

Will once told me something that really stuck.

“So many things to do. Should I run out and do them? Wait are we doing them, now? I might be damned but, I’ll be dammed if I let time win.”

Now, in the musical department I have found a series of songs that come into my head in certain situations, for instance:

LOVE

When I feel more than enough. I know Taylor Swift is cheesy but o well. "You Belong With Me".

If you could see That I'm the one Who understands you Been here all along So why can't you See you belong with me You belong with me. […] Oh, I remember You driving to my house In the middle of the night I'm the one who makes you laugh When you know you're about to cry And I know your favorite songs And you tell me about your dreams Think I know where you belong Think I know it's with me

On my old crush. PlayradioPlay! “Madi Don’t Leave”

We share conversations on How we're all just floating Through space and nothing matters I'm looking for a pattern […] I've got a hopeless crush Maybe that don't mean much to you But, i'm hoping this can keep going Madi, dear, can't we just disappear And take our chances On a teenagers' romances?

The reasons why I love him so much. Imogen Heap"Goodnight And Go"

Why d'ya have to be so cute? It's impossible to ignore you […] Must you make me laugh so much It's bad enough we get along so well Say goodnight and go […]One of these days, you'll miss your train and come stay with me We'll have drinks and talk about things, any excuse to stay awake with you You'll sleep here, i'll sleep there, but then the heating may be down again at my convenience we'd be good, we'd be great together.

On those priceless moments I have with who I love. Snow Patrol - Crack The Shutters

Crack the shutters open wide, I wanna bathe you in the light of day And just watch you as the rays tangle up around your face and body I could sit for hours finding new ways to be awed each minute Cuz' the daylight seems to want you just as much as I want you It's been minutes, it's been days, it's been all I will remember Happy lost in your hair and the cold side of the pillow Your hills and valleys are mapped by my intrepid fingers And in a naked slumber, I dream all this again

ROCK IN LIFE

A life lesson: Common People- Pulp

Never live like common people never do what common people do never fail like common people never watch your life .... slide out of view And then dance, and drink, .... and screw because there's nothing else to do I want to live with common people like you.

On those very common and overwhelming moments in my life.

Metric- Help I’m alive.

I tremble They're gonna eat me alive If I stumble They're gonna eat me alive Can you hear my heart beating like a hammer, beating like a hammer Help, I'm alive, my heart keeps beating like a hammer Hard to be soft, tough to be tender Come take my pulse, the pace is on a runaway train Help, I'm alive, my heart keeps beating like a hammer, beating like a hammer If you're still alive My regrets are few. If my life is mine, what shouldn't I do? I get wherever I'm going, I get whatever I need while my blood's still flowing and my heart still beats. Help, I'm alive, my heart keeps beating like a hammer Hard to be soft, tough to be tender Come take my pulse, the pace is on a runaway train Help, I'm alive, my heart keeps beating like a hammer, beating like a hammer Help, I'm alive, my heart keeps beating like a hammer.

When I’m just a tad anxious.
Jane's Addiction - Not an addict Lyrics

Breathe it in and breathe it out And pass it on, it's almost out We're so creative, so much more We're high above but on the floor It's not a habit, it's cool, I feel alive If you don't have it you're on the other side […]It's not a habit, it's cool, I feel alive If you don't have it you're on the other side I'm not an addict (maybe that's a lie).

When I’m feeling adventurous and devious: MGMT:Indie Rokkers:

“With my heart still filled with fear and it goes on bleedin […] The clean dreams, the sexy limousine Jason's (?) got the energy he used to be a coke fien the skinny brown arms coming round in your shirt heart is in the right place brain is in the dirt you live life like everyone's an enemy.

When I feel that time is not enough, and I need a lot more. MUSE: Time Is Running Out:

Our time is running out Our time is running out You can't push it underground You can't stop it screaming out I wanted freedom Bound and restricted I tried to give you up But I'm addicted.

And the latest adition, when I feel like biatching around and never getting rid of my partying ways.

Shakira - Loba Lyrics

Sigilosa al pasar [...]
Llevo conmigo un radar especial para localizar solteros
Si acaso me meto en aprietos tambien llevo el número de los bomberos ni tipos muy lindos ni divos ni niños ricos yo se lo que quiero pasarla muy bien y portarme muy mal en los brazos de algún caballero
Una loba en el armario
Tiene ganas de salir
Deja que se coma el barrio Antes de irte a dormir
Cuando son casi la una la loba en celo saluda a la luna
Duda si andar por la calle o entrar en un bar a probar fortuna
Ya está sentada en su mesa y pone la mira en su proxima presa
Pobre del desprevenido que no se esperaba una de esas

Not a Common Person....

2009-08-09T15:37:00.002-05:00

After an eventful weekend of making it up to my friends; I can finally write on the subject I promised weeks ago, about the loss in the campaign I "coordinated".

Yes, my 1st "semi" real campaign I lost, but hell I could justify the matter in a zillion ways, but the truth of the matter is: as an adviser you don't have the last word in the choices; hell you get a word which is better than not having one. But that's no guarantee.

I'm more than certain I was right in everything I "advised"; but hell, it wasn't up to me; as it usually isn't. I told the politician not to trust another crazed politician, who has no respect and is infected from "frustration syndrome". But hell, "my boss" made his choice not to listen and to trust someone non worthy of it. That's when the backstabbing shiat went down -something far from common in politics-.

It's sad that our campaign team lost, but in a good way, there's some good in the crappy... hell, maybe people will learn that sometimes a 21 year old can be right (ha). Although, people watch out... I'm not retiring, so let me warn you: politicians beware biatches; because the game isn't over and a scandolous, devious and cynical Machiavellian in search 4 power is waiting (hell, that's me).

Le grand show.... le grand pineapple...

2009-08-05T00:48:00.012-05:00

Don't we look like a wonderful and happy team?? Don't cha think?? are you sure... well that's a pineapple.... yeah bitches I soooooo bluffed you all. DON'T BE NIEVE!!

Yes the biggest pineapple of all times..... it all started exactly a week ago, day when the college Rally Expresión en corto began. You see I was under false pretenses.... I though I went to GUANAJUATO to work with "semi professionals" knowing nothing about production, but it all became quite disappointing when people let personal differences interfere with the goal of making a short film in 48 hours.

It all started on the wrong foot when "the boyz", didn't think it was fair for them to wake up early (as we hadn't slept at all).

Then things got really shitty when they bitched all day long..... food, sleep, and shit, ugh I never had to put up with such woses. (and God knows I've known my share) But I didn't give in, hahaha that was the best part. Aside from that, we ended up partying... thank god I met some folks who weren't panties in a bunch like our "director", whom argued "us" being a team that consisted of a table with varios legs.... hahaha since he gave a rats ass what was going on with us, this is the table we imagine he was refering to:
He's the only member of the team... beacuse everyone else "is useless". hahaha.... but we had out revenge, yes folks, we couldn't just bear with the "bulllshiaaat"..... so here goes in a couple of scenes:
1.. the plan....

2. making it happen:

3. made it happen:

4. screw 'em all, and hell we even made new friends:

5. Le grande finale. CUT:

And finally I would really like to thank those who truly made it possible..... Gaby for accidentally coming up with the plan and being convincing, Francis for hiding and thinking it over and aplying the term "piña", the boys: Saul and Chrsitian for suporting us and distracting eveyone while Franz hid.

I have no excuse....

2009-07-12T20:05:00.004-05:00

I know I know.... I've been an irresponsible-unforgivable person lately, I haven't updated this thing in almost 2 months. But I haven't been on vacation, therefore can I be forgotten?

But I swear..... I've been hella's busy.... and I promise I will write of my life experiences and learnings once I'm done with this short story for a rally. Wish me luck. And to all of my friends..... sorry I have been a lousy abandoner (how very bitchy of me).

PD... Yeah, my campaign LOST I will tell you all about it later, damn it... but it wasn't my fault I was a wonderful adviser and I was right.... like George Stephanopoulos and Dick Morris with Clinton in the good old days.

ATTENTION: ATTENTION SEEKERS!!

2009-05-25T20:47:00.004-05:00

11 things worthy of my attention

Some folks find it “entertaining” acquiring attention from their peers, “asking for it” even “begging for it”. I know I hate many attitudes but acting immature due to a lack of self respect and maturity is right on top of the list and so is the need for others “praise” something despicable. These are the 11 things that I would admire enough to praise and give a person MY attention (and, ha- respect).

Pinching Hugh Jackmans’ ass and getting away with it!!
Getting the popes hat and putting it on while all eyes are upon you during mass.
Winning the presidential race and resigning augmenting “it being a boring ass job”.
Flashing an important political or monarchal figure.
Bitch-slapping Ana Gabriela Guevara, and running so fast that bitch can’t catch up
In a family members wedding, during the “speech” saying inappropriate things such as: “I never thought my sister would find a guy that would want to voluntarily screw her"
Getting caught having sex on a historical statute.
Going very high to work, with everyone thinking “hmm, that’s not normal behavior” but being powerful enough that no one can do anything about it.
Flipping over a car and surviving it –not killing anyone else in the process-, and even laughing about it –extra points if it’s a luxurious car-.
Never being accused of being a “bad-load”.
Never going to classes and getting a better GPA than people who do go.

Just 2 hours before turning 21

2009-05-19T21:53:00.003-05:00

I have just realized what my biggest disadvantage towards life is. I make other peoples problems my own. A big reason to why I blame myself for certain things, ending up feeling guilty for things that are totally out of my control. The same reason why I don't cope like normal people do with certain situations..... it's a flaw I know it.

That's why sometimes I'm self destructive.... that's why I blame my self with the typical "should'a, could'a, would'a" bulshit. Even though it's not my responsibility......

But, hell it's a part of me.

At least I realized this before I turn 21, I can feel more mature now (ha ha ha) ..... now I just have to learn control, and acceptance.

“The use of the truth as a road to responsible political communication”

2009-05-09T13:27:00.006-05:00

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Living in Raccoon City

2009-04-27T21:46:00.003-05:00

I have always suspected that living here was dangerous to my health. But up until Friday it was made official, there is a “terrible” “catastrophic” and “deadly” swine flu going around. Due to this: clubs, bars, private parties etc have been canceled, restaurants are closed, and so are movie theaters, schools sports events and concerts. I believe that these are drastic measures that occur in 3rd world countries –like mine- with governments that don’t know how to get a grip on things. IT SHOULDN'T HAVE COME TO THIS, but since our govenrments are slow, they decided to wait it out!!!

Even the measures that people are taking are mediocre, they don’t even know how to wear their masks, and they are still eating on carts in the streets, I laugh a lot when I go out. I feel like the characters in Resident Evil, everyone is paranoid you can’t even sneeze without people wanting to throw themselves to the ground –as if I had a gun-. I’m not going to be feeding the collective hysterical exaggeration I’m living in. I believe that if people would stop automating and start going to the doctor this wouldn’t spread.

People are starting to suspect of infection their friends and themselves; that’s just downright sad and pathetic; they might as well kill their friends and families and just start biting eachother. And might I clear the air, people are dying, but that’s just because they decide to go to the hospital when they can’t breathe, this resulting in lung failure. You should’ve all just vaccinated when you had a chance, but now you worry!

“Don’t worry I’m infected but I'm not contagious”- Alice

YazzZzz a Machiavellian who is constantly scheming

2009-04-15T10:49:00.003-05:00

I have been on spring break in a land far far away, therefore I wasn’t able to write in my blog –yes, I know I’m always justifying my irresponsibility-

I went to this pseudo-virgin beach in a state located very south in Mexico, Oaxaca I was inn island that goes by the name of Chacahua; there’s barely electricity and running water, so you can get my drift.

It was an interesting trip, but, hell I’m a city gall, that likes the commodities of civilization I can’t help it; no one can blame me. I was planning on rockin’ it and I sure as hell did that “Rum, line after line”. But still I came to the next conclusions:

1. I love the big cities, were things aren’t monotonous.
2. Hell, don’t get me wrong I love nature, the nightlights, creeks, lakes, woods; and all that mumbo jumbo, it just doesn’t fill me anymore. I can attribute that to the fact that I lived in the middle of all that for about 11 years, so it no longer surprises me.
3. I believe that vacations are for resting, not for walking miles for rum and cigarrets –hahaha-.

Ok after that intro, I have to continue with the subject I had mentioned the last time. To refresh some memories: In politics, if no one betrays you; you’re not doing good politics. I promise I will never forget this phrase in my pragmatic career.

You see I believe that if you are doing things right, that usually makes some people upset and even envious; those two factors are one of the many sources of treason. They want to jump you, and smile down upon you. I learned that from one of my friends ex-girlfriends who was betrayed by her best friend for a bunch of crumbs of power, which neither did him or her obtain…. That’s a great life lesson.

Now you get why I learn more from everyday life than from a bunch of Marxists books –I’m more frustrated than ever in my terminal option, things are getting worse before they get better-.

campaigning through life.....

2009-04-01T12:25:00.002-06:00

Ok, so I have been a negligent bitch, I haven’t written in ages. But I have a wonderful justification towards my actions. I have been working on a campaign, a University Committee campaign; it was kind of a big deal. My department went nuts; dirty campaigns, black campaigns, lies, a bit of the truth, the speeches, debates; the whole ENCHILADA!!

I had a wonderful time, I was in operations. And we won the whole thing –OK, so what! We lost communications- But the Social Science Committee, the University Committee -Prince Hervin-, Political Science, and Public Administration was a total win by our part!!!

And the guy who won Communications is going to have to put up with me and my bullshit –cause I can’t trust his ass-. He’s going to have to work a lot on his proposals because I’m going to hunt his deceitful, two-faced ass.

April, May and June are going to be 3 though months for me… I will be working simultaneously in 2 political campaigns and the polls investigation for the Public Opinion Study Group. And on top of that, my aunt and uncle are coming all the way from Argentina.

Must go, I promise to upload some life living lessons soon, real soon. Here’s an hint:
In politics, if no one betrays you; you’re not doing good politics.

Envy....

2009-03-07T17:43:00.000-06:00

In “Game of an Angel”, it’s Spanish author –Carlos Ruiz Zafón- expressed this phrase, which I love:

"Envy is a religion for mediocre people. It’s comforting, it responds to matters that are sprayed inside, and it also rots the soul, it allows a justification for all of the indifference, and cheapness; to the point of belief that those are virtues and that the doors to heaven will only open to unhappy people like them. They go through life without leaving a mark no more than excluding others and making others feel less".

Could it be???

2009-03-01T20:48:00.002-06:00

d. IT'S WRITTEN

I think it's not only written, but a day like today 2 years ago.... he was destined, and I wasn't.

Anything can be fixed with a CUBA!!

2009-02-22T19:37:00.004-06:00

Well almost anything, as it turns out, as some of my readers know: I have issues with my lil sis, and yesterday I casually had to pick her up at a partaaaay. So I went to get her, alongside with a good friend of mine, and suddenly we ended up going to another party, in which my sister socialized, and she finally speaks to me again!! Since she has been pissed at me for a month, and I never completley understood why! hahaha.

I spent a wonderful saturday, alongside with a couple of highschool friends, and some great Havanna Club and Jack Daniel's!! hahaha

Can you believe it?? All thanks to serving her a couple of drinks! hahahaha

PD Well I must get back to the red carpet, I loved the way Brad Pitt dodged Ryan Secrest- an annoying lil prick-. Cuz I'm like that! hahah Untile next time!!!

Educational Crisis

2009-01-29T21:52:00.003-06:00

Inspite current events, when everyone is talking about: economics, crisis, poverty, unemployment I can only think of my crisis the one college has begun to put me in a dilemma. I must be honest, I’m in desperate need of some input on the subject…

Here you see, the thing goes like so… I thought, in my bliss ignorance, that in college I would learn it all, everything I need to succeed and become what I want to, learn those little things, those details you need to know to work in this business. U

But the thing is, I let myself become convinced of that, I was stuck in my own fixated reality. And actually things aren’t what I thought, you see, I think that I’m not learning what I should be learning, and I’m actually going through the motions at school. Most of my teachers are Marxists’ that don’t see more than what they want to. Sooo after a tough ass exam I got in, and I was happy as hell, though a bit unsure that I had made the right "career" choice... still wanting to become a lawyer

On Tuesday (2 weeks ago), speaking with my high school principal –a genius, I might add- a guy who can rationalize and make my college teachers look like ignorant wimps with false arguments. You see talking to him, I realized that I learn more talking to a guy like him, than talking to 99.9999% of the teachers I’ve had classes with – with the exception of Tenorio of course-.

This dilemma, started off on Tuesday, reading a whole lot of things on the Obama Campaign, I almost had a heart attack, when I saw that Jon Favreau -the guy who wrote Obama’s speeches- is only 27 years old, and of course his P.A is only 24. Daaang…. That’s do a whole lot, in a young age! Imagine that, a 24 year old, with the prez’s agenda!!! Why can’t people have that kind of opportunities in this country “in development”.

Is it worth it to be almost 5 years studying this, when I’m clearly seeing that I’m not learning enough? I mean, hell, don’t think I’m slaking off… I’m doing a whole lot by myself, besides reading actually good books. But should I stay or should I go? Is the paper that worth it. I thought that going into my option I would be happy, and it's be a terrible week, things are officially worse than ever!! What to do?? Should I just go through with it?? Should I stay or should I go? I want to specialize on political marketing, media training, and crisis.... and I'm sure as hell not getting any of that with all the Marxists theoreicals my college makes me lear and bullshit around!!

The stoooory of my life!!

2009-01-28T00:20:00.001-06:00

I felt inspired with this song, call it projection.... or whatever........

Sweetness, sweetness never suits me, when I get up to take you home
Maybe it's love, love at first slightly drunk
Now I'm walking with the sun in my mouth

Worry, worry is a well, going to let it fall tonight, from where we stand

What can't be decided
In the morning it will bring itself to you
I can see what's coming, but I'm not saying it

Sickness, weakness at the thought, of how you're going to play
How long should I stay?
Promises, promises never cease to assist it, now I'm back on my back
Please bite your words
Hurry, hurry to believe, I can always trust, as much as you deceive

What can't be decided
In the morning it will bring itself to you
I can see what's coming, but I'm not saying it

What's your middle name? How do you play the game?
I'll be the first to leave
When did I grow up? I don't want to say too much
I'll be the first to leave

What can't be decided
In the morning it will bring itself to you
What can't be decided
Can fool you into thinking maybe you can choose

I can see what's coming
But I'm not saying it

Stars- Midnight Coward.....because after all we've been through... you are just another coward!!!

Goood ol' Ferras...

2009-01-26T19:09:00.005-06:00

The less we have to lose the less we care! Fear those whom have nothing to lose in this life!!

That’s the leason which the “good old ‘Ferras’” made me learn. Who is he? What did he do? The story is quite Mexican, although… I will try to translate the good juicy details…

Here’s the scene, so you can feel the ambient: A guy is standing in the line up –the one where the cops take pictures- Like so…. - Yes, just like the d12 poster-.

A "sly" reporter -like most of the reporters in this land- hahaha- goes up to Ferras… and he immediately starts of telling “his facts”, throught a story with no chronological order o sense - in that matter-.

“My name is Felipe Ferras Goméz, sir. I’m from Veracruz. The dude came up to me with a chain and 500 pesos. He told me “I don’t give a fuck what you do, to me your just a shitface”. I told my mother “I’m going to stab that motherfucker”. My mother said “Nooo Ferraz don’t beee maaad, calm down”. Ugh, my damn knees hurt like crazy.

The reporter asks : Did you kill him?

Ferras: Afirmative.

Reporter: What happened?

Ferras: We went to the train tracks, and there he tried to stab me… I avoided them “saa saaa saaa”. The mother fucker… got pissed, but started running. That’s when everything went to hell, and then I threw cold bullets. You know cold bullets. He screamed… “Ferras, stop”. Hell no, you drink it or you spill it!!

Reporter: Where did you meet him?

Ferras: Pancho Viejo, Vercruz The mo fo, was arrested in Veracruz.

Reporter: Why were you arrested?

Ferras: We worked together. The files are there, you can check the computer… Ok, umm domicile robbery. I already paid that. Now all I owe is for him. He said he was going to fornicate with my sister and my mother! When I started shooting he was all up like “nooo stop, I’m sorry”. I can’t deny it… I did it… he’s going to say I did it "ohh he stabbed me” I don’t regret it, damn fag! I did it I’ll pay… I don’t have anywhere to go. I’m 24, Ill be out in 30, I’ll be 54, no problem I’ll pay!! He can’t talk about my mother. My name Is Ferrras. I send a shout out, to Jannet Guadalupe Contreras, alias la mimosa. Who works in a radio station, in Radio Rolas.

END OF STORY

Damn I feel kind of bad for the guy’s lawyer. He was probably screaming: “Shut up”. “Don’t say a single thing”. Ferras is the clear example, that cynicism exists sometimes far more than we would like it to.
Hell, I love cynicism, I'm one of the biggest cynics I know -haha- But hey, there's a limit between saying what you feel like because you know that nothing can come of it, and saying things... that do have consequences -more than just pissing someone off-.such as loosing your freedom. Most of the things we do, we do them because we can, and we feel like doing them. Therefor, this guy should have kept his mouth shut, and hell, he could've argued "self-defense-.

One of many things I believe....

2009-01-25T23:39:00.006-06:00

I believe, one of many things in this life: the best things in life, are the ones which... we don't reason upon. We just act on them with out thinking. Hey, don't get me wrong I don't think we are irrational creatures which live upon their feelings. But I do think that it is the reason, that sometimes drives us over the edge. In the end, what I'm saying is that the best moments in life, are the ones which we don't plan, they are the ones that just come out of spontaneity.

For example; in a simple shallow kind of way (my way)... the best parties in life AREN'T PLANNED! I can't help mentioning thaaaa parties, it's just my thing.

But looking at it in a deeper spectrum... those people whom we love, passionated, we don't reason it. For example I could have a long list of demands for a "perfect guy", but in the long run... I end up with the least "list filling" kind of guy. Why?? Because my list is rational... I know why I want a kind of guy that.... 1... 2....3....4... BUT in the end of the road, maybe that guy won't make me feel more than "a simple feeling", and a simple feeling is easy to come by!! And human beeings throught life, don't search for simple feelings; we search for that feeling we can't understand, the feeling that confuses us, the feeling which we can't understand, much less explain.

This is the reason why movies, tv shows, books, and all the rest of the media contains... exist. They produce feelings more than thoughts... you feel something about the character, the news, and then you may rationalize upon it. Or al least, that's my belief!! We search for the feelings that certain things produce. WE ARE IN CONSTANT SEARCH OF EMOTIONS and FEELINGS!!!

I must remind you all, that I always speak for my self.... and for my self ONLY... I would not change any moment that I didn't think...in spite of the consequences -good or bad-. Why??? because... some emotions are worth living for!!! The adrenaline, fear, hatred, incompetence, love, regret. It is more through emotions how we learn. We don't want to feel something again or maybe we do!! hahah... who knows!!

I believe that it is those people who rationalize every movement... who have everything planned out, are the ones who in the end, become most frustrated... because... THINGS DON'T ALWAYS TURN OUT AS THEY SHOULD, or at least, the way some people plan things. There's nothing more unfair than the ways of the world.

I procrastinate way too much, I hate thinking.... that's why weed doesn't go with me!! hahaha

ROCKANDROLLA- movie

2009-01-19T19:01:00.015-06:00

A long time ago when I had my 2MB connexion I downloaded a ton of movies.... one of them was ROCKANDROLLA, yeah you know that Guy Richie flick. I must admit I didn't really like Snatch that much, and I'm not fond of Guy, but I enjoyed this movie. It has a great scenry, good actors, a wonderful script... but above everything else, it's got some ass kicking phrases, or as I like to call them, LIFE MOTTOS! haha

The intro, after the credits there's the phrase:
"People ask the question... what's a RocknRolla? And I tell 'em - it's not about drugs, drums, and hospital drips, oh no. There's more there than that, my friend. We all like a bit of the good life - some the money, some the drugs, other the sex game, the glamour, or the fame. But a RocknRolla, oh, he's different. Why? Because a real RocknRolla wants the fucking lot".

Ok the other scene I loved, and not because of the mottos, but because of the direction.... would be the dance scene with Gerard Butler & Thandie Newton. The song which goes perfectly is by Flash & The Plan, and it's called: Waiting for a train.

And last but not least, and for that reason no less importaint; is my favorite part of the whole movie. Why? The answer is quite simple, because one day, I hope not very far away I wish I get the chance to slap someone silly, with a good old fashioned Archie Slap:

hahaha: "There's no need for strong violence".

Wierd couple of days

2009-01-14T20:33:00.003-06:00

OK Go!!
These have been a couple of interesting days, up until today. As it turns out I got offered a job… yes… another job.
On Monday I went to the interview and everything, I could have gotten it, but I refused it.

It would have been quite complicated to fit everything in, 2 jobs, school, and partaaays. As I have previously have repeated “I like my comfortable life”. And as my father put it “it’s a big sacrifice, is it worth it? Is it necessary?” Turns out he’s right –something that he hasn’t been for a long time-. Besides, the job had nothing to do with my major.

Even though I bitch a lot about my job at college, I actually enjoy it there, the perks are great, it’s simple, clean cut, and the commodities are good too. –This is how I convince myself-.

On Monday I also went to see a friend, who used to work in county. He asked me to help him pimp out a magazine that he’s sort of running. So I got to thinking, and got the “gang” together on Tuesday – Fer, Cora and Mimmie-, so we started brainstorming, and we will make this zine ours biatches!! It’s a good way to start a year don’t cha think?

Ughh, on the other hand I don't get men. The story of my life: there's this guy and we really hit it off, but no one acts upon their feelings DAMN IT!!!

PD. Yeaah I’m quite exited, because in exactly 6 days Obama will become president. He will sit in his desk in the oval office with his feet placed upon it; and say “Daaamn, I’m one smart negro. Ohhh Now I see how Monica got under the desk, it’s quite spacious.”

The American Dream, thanks to bad advice

2009-01-14T20:30:00.001-06:00

I wrote this on the day of the election. But since we are 6 days from seeing Obama become president I only find it appropriate to publish this:

The American Dream, thanks to bad advice

When president elect Barack Obama was 10, I’m pretty sure he never saw his self becoming president. Tonight –November 4th-. He won’t be able to shut his eyes. He’s got to think of the rest of the road left to drive. But that’s beside the point, today he made history.
Today –November 4th 2008- a 21:55 hundred hours, Obama on all the national and international tv stations was proclaimed the president elect. The 47 year old “young” black man who didn’t inspire confidence in the public opinion –in the beginning of his internal campaign-. WILL BECOME AS OF January 20th the 44th president.
Obama dodged a lot of bullets, he jumped a lot of hurdles, but he really made people shut up. I remember the 1st cover he appeared on nationally, Times, almost two years ago –in which they sentenced Obama of being a middle class white man, trapped in a black body.
I have to say during the beginning of the campaign –in may-, McCain, was a respectable rival. He had it all: the character, he was a hero, a war veteran, a conservative “open” man. But he didn’t have the most important thing, a good adviser. And in this business, you can’t get far with bad advice.
I throw all the responsibility on Steve Schmidt –a man who never graduated college-. First of all who in the right mind chooses Sara Pallin as the vice, or who dares to compare Obama with a socialite like Paris Hilton? This guy –Steve- took his client to a total collapse.
Also McCain, couldn’t get rid of the image that Bush has created of the Republicans. Even though he tried really hard to be considered apart from Bush, it was really bad timing with the economic crisis and all. On the other hand, the “Fear factor” that McCain tried to indulge in the American population was also a pathetic attempt that backfired.
All this generated that people started trusting more Obama. People wanted change, wanted to be free of the Bush administration. The great thing about this is that WallStreet didn’t close –remembering the almost 6 months that Mexico’s Main Street ‘Reforma’ remained closed due to a “Political Fraud”- That’s what you got to love about America, McCain at the same moment that CNN, FOX, NBC,CBS and the rest of the channels were giving the triumph to Obama. Went up and pronounced a speech, were he asked for respect, no more racism, and unity. That’s highly respectable, especially when you just lost the biggest campaign of your life.

That’s one of the many differences between them and us. You gotta have cojones to go up and admit your loss. It’s quite admirable, that besides the differences, and the still ongoing racism, people actually went out and voted for “The black man”. That means that the average American isn’t a racist individual. You see!! This is just a demonstration that a country isn’t what it’s all out painted to be! I bet many anti-American have shut their mouths since then.

A long year in deed!!

2009-01-03T14:38:00.004-06:00

2008.... was a year full of a lot of things.... new findings, resignations, fun, a little bit of everything. As I rang in 09 with some cuba libres ,Osvaldinho, his family and my sister I realized I wasted some of my time in things that I shouldn't have, or that weren't worthwhile. Therefore, I'm not going to make a new years resolution about "quitting smoking, loosing weight, stop procrastinating", I'm going to make one that will help me a whole lot more in the future.

My new year resolution will consist of not wasting my time, I will be a whole lot productive; there's nothing worse than throwing away my time, and life for that matter. I learned right up till the end that I had abandoned good people, people who are worth it, and I had focused my attention to a certain person that will never be, a person not willing to make a choice, therefore I made it for him.

I'm going to do all the things that I should have done2 years ago. And that's about it folks. I wish that everyone has a wonderful 09, I wish that the best of 08 is the worse of 08 (just like a good friend told me on new years eve).

This starts now..... c-ya!!!

I have been a bad person...

2008-12-12T11:03:00.007-06:00

Finally.... 5th semester, alias hell is over with.... not a lot went on.... but it sucked in general. The teachers were really mediocre as were the subjects. But I have big expectations for the next semester, yes folks, 6th semester..... the semester when I no longer study subjects I don't care, such as journalism genre, projects workshop. Finally next semester will be when I'll learn how to make political campaigns, and how to make my politician look good, media training, etc. i just hope it's not another disappointment.
I'm sorry I didn't write in quite a while, it's just, since I very oftenly didn't go to class, I had to put in extra effort durring finnals (study, shoot a video, write killer essays, investigate, etc). On the other hand, I really want to resign at work, anyone's got any sugestions? I feel as if I'm not going anywhere in work!! I'm starting to suffer from "kill the boss" sindrome! haha.

Ugh, this week the heater broke hahha so I have had to take cold showers all week, I don't wish that for anyone! I think I might die from a heart attack soon. Next week I'm going to have a Christmas dinner with folks at my college, who would have though? To my defence, things have been a but better with my college classmates. On the other hand, I wish I could have organized a dinner with my true friend , my highschool buddies, but oh well... next year I promise.

This is going to be a killer winter break, I get to catch up on my reading, Zamorano lent me a book thats called "the Antiamerican Obssesion", and I'm quite curious to read it, and also I must read "The new machiveliean handbook".

Hell has broken out

2008-11-08T11:14:00.007-06:00

This has been quite a week, all hell broke out. 1st of all the Rams defeated the Cowboy's 2 weeks ago, this made me quite happy, tough I know the Rams don't have a chance. But more importantly the end of this god awful semester is finally coming to an end, therefore I have to take advantage of this weekend to hang around and do nothing, because when finals start, I just won't have the time to do the things I love. Even more importantly, Barack Obama, on Tuesday, won the election, thing that I have been predicting for a couple of months, hell I know the man isn't santa, but I'm ´pretty sure the USA will be better off with him in the oval office. And might I add, I have been with the guy for nearly two years, waaaayyy before lots of people in this city ever even heard his name, and as it turns out, now everyone was behind him (hahaha it's kind of funny when politicians become "in").

And last but not least, our (Mexican) Head of the State Department, Mouriño has tragically "died", in a jet "accident", two circumstances which I hardy doubt... that shizzz was most certainly NOT an accident, beware people... if he isn't safe.... who the hell is?? And the other theory I have, is that the man is actually alive sippin some rum and cokes in the Bahamas (I've seen Alias, waay to much) but hey a girl can dream!!! I rally do hope the guy is alive and laughing at everything.

My childhood team...

2008-10-12T13:28:00.009-05:00

Ok, thanks to popular demand... I will no longer speak about "LOVE". So today was a good day though I know that tommorow will totaaallly BRING IT All. I know Sunday will be tight. You see, my all time favorite football team will play against the Dallas Cowboys. That means, this next sunday afternoon football... the RAMS will play against the almost undefeated Cowboys.
It's going to be a great game, although I know that the Cowboys don't have very difficult win. The Cowboys is lining up to be a great team this season, they only lost one game against Washington. While the Rams have been defeated every single game of the season.
The RAMS' old coach was even kicked out, after the terrible game against the Bills. And plus all that, the injuries, ugh.

1. Randy McMichael suffered a broken tibia and torn ligament in his right leg in the Rams' 31-14 loss to the Bills.

2. A spot was found in Derek Stanley's brain , and his true conditions is yet unknown.
O well, we'll have to see what Jim Haslett can do for this team. I blame the Rams' administration for all the mishaps. I miss the days of Warner, and Faulk, when the team had it all. O well, we'll see, kick off on sunday at 3:20 central.

A breathtaking feeling.

2008-10-02T18:15:00.005-05:00

This has been a couple of lovable weeks, ergo I haven't written. Why you ask? Why if Yazz is disgusted by world and isn't capable of it? Well folks, I hate to brake it to you I am most certainly capable of it, hahaha even if I don't shout it out and get all corny.
All of a sudden, I have realized, I haven't had much of any luck in the love department, though I'm pretty sure I'm currently in love or at least getting close to it. Destiny has always been a bitch to me, in the last case it was because I moved away and so did he, and in this case... let's just say it's far more complicated than a border dividing us. Can you believe that?

If I had a love song it would sound a little bit like this:
I can't be held responsible I won't be held responsible "I" fell in love in the first place for the life of me i cannot remember what made us think that we were wise and we'd never compromise for the life of me i cannot believe we'd ever die for these sins we were merely freshmen

I sorta changed a couple of lyrics... so it could all fit in.

That's how things are, and that's how they'll be. Love much more than feeling, it's a state of mind, were you love those little quirks' that normal people despise; you can't stop going through the moments you have been granted with that person, you have mental flashbacks and take great pleasure in every second of it. Love can also represent different things to different people some even believe you can love different people in diverse and odd ways. And love can manifest in many unusual ways, we can't control it, we don't have a choice in the matter. There isn't a time frame for love, and most importantly, I believe, the feeling... as much as it can hurt, IT'S BREATHTAKING!!!

Honesty Flick...

2008-09-18T18:32:00.004-05:00

Yesterday I went to see Dan in Real Life -a great movie by the way-. And taking into consideration a certain crush, with a certain guy-friend. The film made me reflect... a little about honesty.
Honesty is a bitch to some and to others it's everything, although not everyone can be honest about things, and better yet not everyone can accept honesty. Usually people who prefer avoiding the truth aren't people I like being around, I don't know it's a thing of mine... I can't stand having to keep my lips closed, I have a thing for speaking my mind, and even if it gets me in trouble it still most gratifying because "Damn, I said what I thought"; that's my ideal "and ideals are bullet proof".
But the thing is, What happens when you can't be sincere, when you realize that your honesty (as great and true as it it) it might just badly hurt someone in the process. Where must the line be drawn? Is it selfish to speak your mind in these situations?
But what if, just what if you speak your mind to avoid hurting the other person, but the other person, due to certain maturity issues can't cope with it? In that case is it the sincere persons problem? Or is it the individual who can't deal with it's problem? Who's to blame? Is it too selfish and morbid to be honest just to feel better?
What percentage of people truly show appreciation for honesty? I know I do, I prefer to be destroyed with the truth, than to be deceiving with me. I know it's just terribly wrong to wish and expect everyone to be like that. O well, I just had to get that off my chest.

A Friday adventure...

2008-09-14T11:37:00.005-05:00

Like any other Friday, I fixed my social schedule to go on a drinking frenzy, but things didn’t go according to plan… as it turns out Daniel wanted to celebrate his b-day with me and Cora, so we got together, all 3 of us were late, the drinking marathon didn’t start very well, but we proceeded to try and make the best of it.
First, we went to the “yardas”, and no surprise there, we couldn’t get a table, so we headed to “Pabellon Copilco” a place where I hate going, but we really didn’t much of a choice, due to the fact we all had plans afterwards, little money, and almost out of gas. It was even worse than usual, so we democratically decided to proceed to the wonderful “azteconas”, and get 5 liters of beer and go on campus to drink without major troubles.
We bought our delicious aztecona mixed draft beers with a perfect blend of lime and chili, and after 15 minutes we finally were able to get a parking space in the department of philosophy of the prestigious National Autonomous University of Mexico –which today occupies position 51 in the best universities in the world, according to the online rankings- so there were a couple of tailgate parties, but nothing to crazy.
Then, just then we realized… it was the yearly “donkey burn”, which is a tradition that college students perform every year before the UNAM- POLI football game. We didn’t mind them, and we headed to the green area while I called the mobile company and yelled at “Guillermo” because my friends new phone line wasn’t up yet, when we got to the green area, we saw people running towards us, and we heard blasters go off, but we didn’t mind.
Daniel was so calm, he even went down to light his cigarette, Cora and I proceeded to sit, and admire the campus. Suddenly, a couple of campus security men told us to stand up and start walking, as it turns out the burn, wasn’t going according to plan, and we had to evacuate the campus. People were frantically running towards us… therefore I proceeded to finish 2 of 5 beers, and we had 3 left, we calmly walked to the street with our azteconas.
Sundenly all hell broke loose, Daniel had gone straight into the conflict area, so we put our 3 beers, on the yellow rail, and I got under it… suddenly the bottles the assholes were throwing we too close, so Cora and I had to leave our beers, and we crossed the street dodging the crap and they were throwing. We finally got to the other side were the “useful” city police were talking on their walkie-talkies and taking pictures (and not arresting anyone), while people were beating each other.
All of a sudden, I take a look at our beers and a son of a bitch picks one up and throws it, I scream in anger –hahahah-. A couple of minutes later, the accumulation of individuals, with high school t-shirts, and beer bottles we going towards the dean’s office, so I crossed the street frantically, and save 2 of the 3 beers. Daniel had finally gotten back from trying to light his cig, and we laid down to joke about the whole ordeal.
As it turns out, some students from philosophy didn’t want high school bitches at our campus, so the proceeded to beat them with sticks, and the high-schoolers –drunken and disorderly- threw beer bottles at them, and exploding cocktails, hitting 4 students, 2 of them were injured badly in the head and face.
These violent events started at 6: 45 and ended at 7:15, at 8:00 I left the campus, and went to another b-day celebration. It was a Friday full of adrenaline, but dangerous none the less. Thank heavens5 high school "students" will be expelled after this little mishap, they deserve that and more, stupid sons of bitches.

Here's the video, we where standing a couple of feet behind who shot the video.

A little bit of everything....

2008-09-10T19:22:00.002-05:00

I feel so awful... I haven't written anything here in ageeees!! That makes me feel like such an irresponsible person, I don't want to be a blog abandoner .
O well... moving on.... I've had a wonderful time.... no complaints. And I feel ROCKTOBER will most certainly have it all... it will begin with a wonderful weekend at "moles" house.... and it will end with Damian's Bday celebration (at Cervantino, probably) - and I have to mention all the bdays in between-.
Though I'm kind of worried... is it normal to be bored in every college course I have?? Ugh, I'm starting to think that I didn't chose my teachers rationally and in a proper manner... o well... one semester closer to closing the chapter.
Today I had a wonderful convo with Lizzy, she said something that I truly believe, but Ihaven't been able to say out loud... so here goes:

(06:39 p.m.)דµ€ ¥ªɀ is total: Did you hear about sara palin?
(06:43 p.m.) F.T.A.D.E.P - Ve: I don't know, I hate politics. If you don't know something people think your stupid. If you say something that others don't know they say that your a jackass or a spy or something.
(06:44 p.m.)דµ€ ¥ªɀ is total: jajajajaj
(06:46 p.m.) F.T.A.D.E.P - Ve: O not??
(06:47 p.m.) F.T.A.D.E.P - Ve: Like, if you say something that no one realizes they say that your involved, if you say you read it in the papers they say that your foolish for believing the media.
(06:48 p.m.)דµ€ ¥ªɀ is total: (speachless)

That's Lizzy's intake on things, and I can't say I disagree, some brainless people think that having an opinion is bad... and she's right, and opinion on things is usual not well seen. I mean, hey I'm all for opinions, the thing is... what proficiency do you have to have an opinion? Is it always necessary? Who can judge your opinion? I mean hell after all it’s an opinion, you don’t have to justify your way of thinking do you??
Tenorio would say "only experts can have a real intake on things, we can't go about life, interpreting things that 'we feel' 'we think' not everybody can have the knack about education, sports, culture, arts, politics, that's why thought-out life we try to have an expertise so we can emit funded judgments " That's why, I can't have an opinion on everything... goodness gracious I toootaaally miss that teacher!!

Having the time of my life!!!

2008-08-16T21:52:00.006-05:00

Yeaah, life's most certainly become a blast!!!

I had a great 1st week of school, which is actually a 1st, since senior year. I really can't complain, the intensity of things has most certainly lowered. And of course, less importance, to more people!! hahaha
And therefore I mixed it up a little with the teachers this semester, and it's destined to be a great semester filled with....a little bit of everything. I just hope I'm able in changes to insert my two switches. If not some administrative, bureaucratic bitches are going to have to hear me out, I deserve it, all thanks to my GPA.
In other matters, I've been having a wonderful weekend, since Thursday hahaha the oficial starting line!! hahaha, well toodles, must go, a wonderful partaaayyy aproaches.

And remember, "an eye is upon you", thanks to Shoyo whom made it all possible!

PD... have nothing to do on a Friday o Satarday night??? HEY!!! KEEP IN MIND.... you can always insult me!! hahahahahha

That's the thing...

2008-08-06T21:02:00.005-05:00

It's true we CAN'T control our emotions, we can only control our actions.
Maybe because I don't have another choice, but I'm kind of a believer: I CAN HAVE A FEELING AND NOT ACT ON IT.... Because I couldn't live with my self if I did.

jajajaja, "FUCK ME"??

2008-08-03T11:25:00.007-05:00

That's what pathetic people comment on a Saturday night at 1: 00 AM. Don't you have something better to do??? It's quite clear some folks don't have a life, so they destine their free time to writing a series of "Fuck yous", sometimes with grammatical mistakes, because hey, I can't expect some folks to write in English hahaha, especially the type of folks that remain anonymous and IGNORANT

I would publish the comments that are insulting, because hey, I'm all for the freedom of speech but there are limits, and I refuse to publish anything anonymous. If you have the "nuts" to write "fuck you", you must also have the balls to write your "fucking" name. I don't care if people don't agree with me, I have even published comments of people who think the opposite of what I write, but they write it respectfully. If you want to make me feel bad, an insult isn't the key, do it with intelligence, any one can insult me, but few people can make their point with IQ.

It's my "fucking" blog, and I can say what ever the "fuck" I want, and if that makes some people nauseous, well live with it, hahahaha. Or better yet, DON'T VISIT MY BLOG!!! You always have a choice in what you read haha, I deeply regret the fact that I can't be friends with bitchy ass, cowards hahahaha..... cheers!!

Puff....

2008-07-31T19:59:00.009-05:00

Yeaah, due to a friend, I found out: the breathalyzer in commercial use exists in this country (MEXICO), for those who didn't know!! hahaha Though it doesn't give out a reading, it's tiiight though! hahahah.
It's a tiny key chain, that turns red or green depending on the level.And it can be found in Steren

Thank God I'm Atheous -WOODY ALLEN

2008-07-29T20:54:00.003-05:00

I love that phrase, such an irony! haha.

O well, today I went to church (yes people, sometimes a go to church, mostly against my will). In this occasion I had to go to the one year anniversary of the death of my favorite aunt. But that's not the case. Every time I go, I usually look around, and analyze everything, from the people, to what the priest says, to the church its self. I find everything sooo interesting, the phrases that are said in mass, such as: "God pity us" are matter of a semiotic study.
Hey, don't get me wrong, I used to be a good catholic girl, hell I was even a altar girl, I even went to Sunday School until I was like 13, OK, so most of the time I didn't enter the classroom, I sort of stayed in the hallways sleeping, but that doesn't count. And I respect all religions, I just find it fascinating to analyze the people that attend mass, and all the things the priest says.
I noticed somethings that I can add to the list of things that I disgust about my parents, a part from the fact that they are obsessed with church, specially my mother... I hate the fact that they give money to maintain the organization. Did you know that the State that receives the highest profits annually is the VATICAN!
Catholicism isn't what disgusts me, I just hate the catholic organization, per sei. After everything that the church has done in the name of God during the years, how can they actually think that all is forgotten. But o well, I guess mos human beings have to believe in something, even if it's corrupt. Who am I to judge, but a simple mortal.

People praise and thank god, so god won't crush the like bugs -Dr Gregory House

Lovin' it

2008-07-16T13:13:00.004-05:00

Sorry I had to use a McDonald's copy, it's just I must express my complete satisfaction for these wonderful vacations. Why? Well I'll tell you why, I'll even make a list of the reasons why I'm enjyoing my summer vacations:

I don't have to put up with people I dislike, on the contrary to when I'm at school, and I have to talk and even wave at people I can't stand. And people that generally can't stand me, hahaha
Yes, I get to wake up at whatever hour, I can also stay up late watching all those movies I can't watch when I have class.
I go out with my friends more often, since I don't have to spend my money on school supplies, copies, books and so on, I GET TO DESTINE MORE MONEY TO: partying, drinking, clubbin', etc.
I don't have to go to work!
I get to just leave my crib, whenever I want to, without worrying about homework.
Every day is a new adventure.

And that's just a part of the list of the many perks of these summer vacations!! I hope everyone is enjoying there freetime as much as me..

Ughhh....

2008-07-07T14:39:00.001-05:00

Why must the past always come back to haunt me? Why can't certain people just get over somethings? Umm, well maybe because I CAN'T!!!

Heyyy, it’s my right for medical attention….my taxes pay for your salary

2008-06-30T23:28:00.006-05:00

Ok, so my mother had a bit of a fall, leaving work, so I had to hitch a ride to go pick her up. And she got al nervous and hysterical, so I had to take her to the hospital… I hate hospitals, I truly hate them, and everything that comes along with them: the smell, doctors, sick people, the colors, ugh. It makes me very ill, even the thought of it. The give me the hibie gibies.

But anyways, we entered the emergency room, and everyone there in pain, children crying, people competing seeing who is sicker. I went to register my mother, and TADAAA I thought “damn it, I’m going to be here useless hours”, because deep down inside I know my mother tends to exaggerate health issues.

Therefore, I went up, and started speaking loudly to get some attention, I knocked on the preexam room, and talked to a doctor, exaggerating the circumstances, it was kind of fun “she could have a concussion, she lost consciousness”, “she has circulatory problems, and she’s shaking”, “please I know there’s a lot of people here, I know this is a public healthcare service, but could you just take a look at her?”. YEaaahhHH!! I won, he let her in, sent her to x-rays.

And in less than an hour we were outa there with the appropriate meds, and everything. It was tiiiight hahahaha I looooooveee requesting my rights in public services!!! So remember if you’re in a crisis, just send out an S.O.S, and… crazy maniac, yAzZzz comes to the rescue.

Well, I must go now, tomorrow I get up early to take the course to take the medical exams to the freshmen. I love being in the welcoming comitee, I get to scout for a future husband at my college.

PD. Yeaah I bought a violin at a great price that makes oooh sooo happy!!!

Beware of people like such

2008-06-20T21:16:00.002-05:00

Ok, so I don’t have many friends in college, God himself knows I like people, I just don’t like people close to me, hahaha, but what happens when people don’t trust you? It gets just a tad complicated; so I’m going to enlighten you with a nonfiction story.

A long time ago, in the far away land of the Department of Social and Political Science, at a College in one of those 3^rd world countries, there was this group of friends, which weren’t really friends, though they liked to think they were.

There was a particular member of this certain group, this little girl, she wasn’t a bad person she just had a zillion issues with herself and that made her just a bit problematical, and what the hell, a HUGE DRAMA QUEEN!! She loooooveees the drama, more than Shakespeare, this is usually because her life is just a tad empty, and it’s “entertaining” for her to make up her life like a crappy daytime soap.

As it turns out, this girl really really “LOVES”, she can meet a guy one day, and 12 hours later, she claims “loving” him. It’s quite weird, it’s underestimating love, you kind of have to know someone a little more than 12 hours to “love” him, don´t you?

The problem with the men she “loves” is that they have questionable morals; and are usually two faced suckers who “act” loyal, honest and carrying but they actually use women. This is quite funny if you think about it. So as it turns out this young lady spends her days justifying the ways of these men, and these men usually hit on her friends.

That’s not the worst part of this story, this girl usually puts the blame on her friends, she is blinded by “love”, and she blames her friends who interact with her “man” of being traitors and whores who “mess with her man”. So if you are her friend, it is recommended that you don’t speak with her “man”.

So this little girl doesn’t trust her friends, though she tries to hide it. This problem surfaces because the boy is usually a little lying crappy son of a bitch but, she can’t “not trust him” because: “he’s such a good person”. The saddest part of this sob story, the girl has self esteem issues; she blames her friends of all the males’ faults, because it’s easy, it’s easier to justify everything saying “that bitch got up all in ‘my’ man, instead of putting the blame on herself. Freud followers would have a kick with a study at this particular case.

It doesn’t really end here, as it turns out, all the people who tried to befriend this girl, you must be totally demagogic, and say exactly what she wants to hear, if you don’t, “you don´t get her”, “you don’t care about her”, and you’re “just about the worst person in her life”. The only thing I can say about this case… BEWARE OF PEOPLE LIKE THOSE DESCRIBED IN THIS ANECDOTE. DISTANCE YOUR SELF. You don’t want to be caught up in the drama, or do you?

Dang, and I thought high school was over with.

PD. Damn I’m sorry, I haven’t put up any more pictures it’s just I couldn’t find appropriate ones; I promise I’ll add some later on.

Summer has officially begun

2008-06-16T17:09:00.001-05:00

Ok, so I won’t be donating anymore blood, it totally ruined my weekend, and of course I forgot to take my pill, so my blood pleasure plunged, it was quite uncomfortable I felt really distraught in the middle of a party. I swear that won’t be happening ever again, I will never ever donate blood, or forget to take my pill before a “reunion”. The party wasn’t all that great, a “good friend” of mine lost it and stared behaving quite inappropriately, I think I won’t be partying with him any time soon. But on the other hand, thank god I won’t have to put up with crappy people for approximately 43 days. Huraaahh for me…

Well ok, I do have to put up with my bitch sister, but that’s the least of my concerns, there’s a possible solution for that. I’m quite exited, this Saturday I’m going to have the time of my life, for more than 24 hours I shall paaartaaayyyy with those faithful friends, you know the ones that never let me down.

An accusation.

2008-06-10T21:35:00.005-05:00

Scene 1. Gabriel: “You sound like that one kid who said that a dictatorship is the best democracy”.

Scene 2. Yaz: “Discussing about how the media should be isn’t going to change it”.

Gabriel “Well, here we come to discuss how media should be”.

Yaz (to herself and under her breath). “That’s not going to get me a job, or feed me, or clothe me. That’s philosophy, not communication.”

Scene 3: Yaz: “We can’t expose our opinion on laws, education, welfare, economics, everything. We don’t have enough bases on any of those subjects; we are not made to comment about everything. That’s the same thing that pisses us off about talk shows.”

Gabriel “There’s Fatima Fernandez, she comments about anything”.

Yaz (to herself and under her breath). “She’s a sociologist; she’s not a communication expert, it’s not the same”.

Scene 4: Gabriel “You have a B. Why can’t you write properly?”

Yaz: “Umm, well, umm, Spanish isn’t my native language”.

Gabriel snickers, and says “OK”.

I thought back of all the particulars throughout the semester and I came to a conclusion, he didn’t like me because I didn’t think like him, OK, he didn’t have to like me, but he had an obligation to at least respect me. Why? Because the hypocrite at the beginning of the semester clearly said: “here you can all speak your mind”. Well pure honky donky… he didn’t respect me or my way of thinking, the jackass wouldn’t have had to, if he hadn’t acted as if he were quite open. Just like a congruent adult would assume.

It’s quite funny how he babbled on about censorship, and he takes it to the next level at his own classroom. Quite pathetic you wouldn’t think?

I’m past it, but I would really like to accuse, Gabriel Romero Hernandez, for the hideous crime of banning my liberty of speech. He is one of those intolerant teachers at the National Autonomous University of Mexico, in the Faculty of Political and Social Science, but he’s the worst kind, because he passes off as a nice “open” kind of guy, with a dynamic class, and “easy” exams. Pure crap, his exams are so subjective, a priest would be more objective. And as to open, open ha, yeah right, a pro life protester is much more open than him. Sad isn’t it?
But on the other hand, I have just officially ended with this torturing semester. So 4 gone, 5 to go. Huraaahhh. I will pick my teachers more carefully next time, and I won’t, I repeat, I WON’T Guide my decisions on second opinions.

Becoming a communication major is one semester closer…

2008-06-07T15:17:00.005-05:00

Yes, that’s right dear bloggers… soon enough I shall end this major in about give or take 2 more years. Throughout almost 2 years… I have realized a few things about college… many people cheat… hell yeah… there are those who don’t study and copy in exams, others who make up the research answers to the polls, those who don’t read crap and download summaries, those who pay others to write essays for them, others who download everything off line and don’t change a single word, those use bring cheat sheets on exams, others who make up answers for interviews. There’s a bit of everything, really… what? You don’t believe me??

It’s quite funny; I haven’t yet run into someone who hasn’t done any of the things above, me included. So here comes the hardest question of all… Is college a fraud? Well, hope not, because in that case why the hell am I studying?

The other day I laughed my ass off… as it turns out, most of the teachers that impart journalism genre II, at the end of the semester assign a journalistic report, in my case I had to do a radio report, it was quite painstaking, but me and Cora went thought with it, with honors, we didn’t make up a single fact.

At 8PM before turning in my project, I receive a phone call from a friend asking me for names of people who own a club, I gave him a couple and he said “thanks and by the way I included and fake interview with you, because I didn’t want to go through with it.

I laughed, but that wasn’t enough… when I get in the classroom the next day to turn in my project.. I hear, to my disgrace, actually to the frauds disgrace “damn, what if the teacher notices that we made up the interviews?”. I really couldn’t help myself, I laughed harder (mainly because I hate the girl who was bullshitting). Later on the cynic, asked me “did you guys make up interviews?”, me, all proper and quite annoyed answered “Hell no, what is wrong with you?”

Ok, I was a bit of a hypocrite, because in the last report I had to turn in, I sort of made up 2 interviews (and I didn’t make the up per sei, since people sort of said the same things just in a different space and time) … but hell I don’t want to be a journalist, and it was late, and no one would answer me… so I didn’t have another choice, but IT WASN’T THE FINAL!!

Huraaaah

2008-06-01T20:14:00.003-05:00

I finally went shopping for a pair of Vans… hahaha I had been putting it off for more tan a year!!! Today I went to Vans Cheapland, I bought this pair… I searched for more than 2 hours, finally I found a pair I liked….

Though I was looking for something a bit more original, a pair like this:

But ooohh well you win some, you lose some!!

Daang…

2008-05-21T22:50:00.000-05:00

I can’t get far far way from all the forwards hahha, this time my dear old friend… Cora, has condemned me if I don’t answer these questions. It is said that I will no longer experiment pleasure AAAAAAAAAAAAAAh! Hahahha that scares me! Hahaha so here goes…

Things I Value:

1.- Honesty

2.- True friendships, those that I know will never expire
3.- My career
4.- Justice
5.- The pleasures of life
6.- an ice cold CUBA!! With a twist of lime!!

Things I hate, or I don’t value.
1.- Liars
2.- People who think they bring it all, but they don´t bring shit! Hahaha
3.- Hipocrits

4.- Stupid folks with an iniciative
5.- People who think they can interpret things that aren’t there.

6.- Folks who think that they can outsmart anyone!! Haha

Things I can kick ass in…

2008-05-21T21:49:00.003-05:00

The other day I was talking, messing around, and I realized I have 3 specialties’. Yes, 3 of them. I’m quite proud, some people are good at math, others good at public relations, others at writing, others at chemistry… but I’m good at:

I really rule at getting quite rude with customer service, I really hate it when commercial stores try to rip me off, and also when clubs, bars, pubs and stuff try to cheat me out of my money. I fight for my rights to great services and products, hahaha most of my friends laugh at me because I get all crazy, but I don’t care!
I’m particularly good at criticizing. Almost any topic, you name it, I can bullshit about it. That’s precisely what I want to dedicate the rest of my life to: CRITICIZE. So people watch out.
And last but not least, I'm great at getting drunk, It’s most certainly a great forte of mine.

Speachless

2008-05-10T17:33:00.002-05:00

I truly fucked up yesterday.. I need a good person to bitchslap me… as I deserve it.

Not a very good day.. or week actually

2008-05-08T19:29:00.002-05:00

As it turns out, the day didn’t start off that bad, as bad as the rest of the days of this bitchy week… but it exactly 9:45 it started sucking. First I fell asleep in my last two classes, including my favorite one (History III). Then I went to work, which wasn’t as bad as other days, I Just kept falling asleep as I was with my boss.

Later on, I ran home and went to turn in the papers for the national advertising contest. Finally, I got home and a friend was waiting for me… I had decided to finally give him an opportunity. But then I realized I couldn’t be with him because he lives under the influence. So I told him to bug off.

And now as I write this, laying on my sofa, I realized that I was quite stupid, thinking that he could change, that he could deserve a second chance. I’m never going to be able to get over certain things, no matter how many therapy sessions I have. Which I’m planning to ditch, it’s just not working for me, and I HATE NOT BEING ABLE TO SLEEP!!

Ohh well, “Life is life”, I better live it… in the next couple of weeks I won’t be adding entries’, since finals approach, and this is the last chance to fix all the crap I’ve done this semester.

Rock Philosophy… the ways of a true rocker

2008-05-01T12:12:00.004-05:00

I know, I hate philosophy sometimes, but in this occasion I’m quite inspired to talk about the way ROCK should be… but more than that, how a true rocker should live and be. This is inspired by a discussion I had with Lizzy and George yesterday. Might I just add these two really know how to ROCK!!.

A rocker should understand, that rock is unlimited, it’s never too much or enough
A rocker should consider it a lifestyle
A rocker should always exaggerate normal circumstances
A rocker shouldn’t be a whiner or a poser
A rocker shouldn’t show off, he or she should remember that actions speak louder than words.
A rocker should be identified and differenced from all the crap
A rocker should always have fun, under any circumstance
A rocker shouldn’t worry about sleeping
A rocker should be stylish
A rocker shouldn’t give a crap what others say.
A rocker shouldn’t let himself, herself, be intimidated by anyone.
A rocker should know that defeating the night isn’t a challenge it’s an obligation
A rocker should bring it all
A rocker shouldn’t discriminate
A rocker shouldn’t care that tomorrow he or she has classes or work
A rocker should live enough to know that excesses aren’t bad just because TV says so
A rocker earns his or her respect
A rocker has lived many things, things that the common folks haven’t
A rocker should be honest, even to the point of cynicism

Finally, I state my case: Rock is most certainly not a motto; it’s most definitely a WAY OF LIFE, so stop bitching, and START living.

WOOWW

2008-04-28T17:52:00.004-05:00

Ohh myyy gooosh!

Yeaah… today, as I was supposedly working my good old friend CORZ when she showed me this ad, and I went nuts… it was ohh sooo tiiight, I just had to post it.

That’s taking the whole dirty model style (Very Kate Moss’y’like)… to a whole new level, though the ad is a fake, it’s a mere reproduction IT TOTALLY ROCKS, IT HAS THE PURE ESSENCE OF ROCKIN IT!!

As it turns out…

2008-04-28T17:29:00.003-05:00

Daaang, I haven’t written in quite a while… but here goes a little bit of what’s been going on…

I have been a very good little girl lately… yes; I know it’s quite pathetic, at my nearly 20 years of age. But I have been able to control myself I’ve been able to go out with those bad influences, and not give in to the pleasures (haha)!! And that’s most definitely something that I thought I’d never be able to stop. To tell you the truth, I can’t discontinue all the partying, it’s in my blood, I have inherited that, but I have stopped giving in… letting myself lose it. As they say… one day at a time.

I feel kind of bad, because I didn’t see my highschool friends on Saturday, but I swear it was for a good cause, I had to prove to myself that I could take it…

I’m quite proud hahaha, but ohh well until the next time.

“On trips you find out who your real friends are”

2008-04-21T20:56:00.006-05:00

As It turns out; I had a wonderful time in Verac ruz. Ok, I drank tons, hahaha maybe the whole Alcohol Industry in Veracruz, o well, it was a challenge that I was obligated to complete. Though, I wasn’t really that optimistic about the whole journey, I kind of thought that I would just lose it… but I didn’t, I had a lot of self control, which why I’m pleased with myself, I proved that I could enclose a bit of self control.

I acted quite responsibly, I didn’t swim or go to the beach in an inconvenient estate (thought a couple of my roommates did). Now, the matter in question, the phrase “on trips you find out who your real friends are” is totally true, on trips, journeys, adventures, you get to see what people are really about, I got to confirm my suspiciouns about a certain “click of friends”. I realized that not only where they full of shit, and stupid, but they are also a group of voluble little fucks. I’m glad, I never really considered them my “friends”, so I’m not really that disappointed, thought it’s not always good to be right about people, in this case I was.

On the other hand, I had the opportunity to subsist with a few nice folks, who aren’t running around with bullshit, and of course, of those who really know how to party, hahaha, that makes me quite cheerful, optimistic with high spirits. Could it be, I just haven’t had much luck with folks at college? Could it be, there are more normal, polite, pleasant people than I thought?

I hate….

2008-04-12T16:30:00.000-05:00

There are a whole lot of things I really despise in life, and I can’t write about them because they would take a whole lot of space. Though if I had to choose the most despised, it would be giving explanations for my actions. You see, I don’t really find it “amusing” having to explain myself. The things I do, and the way I do them, is because I want to do them the way I do them! (hahaha sounds like a syllogism).

I have always known this about myself, though, today I went crazy, because she asked: “why are you going to the shop downstairs?” I spent over 10 minutes wasting my time explaining my homework and such… it was quite a draaaag. And that always happens to me, I tend to become frustrated with almost anyone, when I have explain my actions, see I don’t have problems with consequences and being held accountable for my actions, but I HATE… having to explain myself, I always have and always will.

Crazy weekend aproaches...

2008-04-10T19:51:00.003-05:00

Damn it, I’m mixed up in a crazy ass journey. A voyage which me and another 90 crazy ass college individuals will endure… and the closer it gets, the more nervous I become, I know from this moment; that I’ll be caught up in excess and lots of rockin’, the only way I know how… Caught up in nothing more than pure excess.

That worries me a little, since I become a little irresponsible in the wonderful company of others with of course, no responsibilities, since it’s not really a school trip, I’ll spend my moments quite wasted… many what if’s come to mind… What if I drown in the ocean? What if I don’t comeback in one peace? What if we get into an accident? Damn it, I have to stop thinking the worse of this trip, but wouldn’t you?? I mean 90 people reunited to drink, and get wasted, with no supervision, in another state and with 2 alcoholic 25 year olds in charge… hahahaha, ohh well…. Whatever happens happens, I’ve cheated fate my fair share of times, one more is a piece of cake!