Angry people do stupid things

Well, I've been living here for a month now, it's great. I have a good time, I'm getting my dissertation done and going to class. I get to talk to my friends almost everyday. New York is closer by the minuet. I have a wonderful roommate.

I do like US college life, even if it's in a small town. It's quite nice, good installations, lots of activities (yes, by that I mean parties). I could seriously get use to this. I know I will hate going back to "my home country". But ohh well, that's the way life is.

On the other hand, things didn't end good at all with a guy, and I must confess that I have been angry with him and with myself since I got here. No one had to prove anything to anyone but he decided to prove something, and he sure as hell did it!! And now, we don't speak, and I'm pissed as hell. And that's when anger makes me do stupid things that only screw me over, no one else but me. It's really pathetic that out of anger I screw myself over, and more so when it's due to my anger to a guy who's having the time of his life.

I really must get that part of my life in order.

And I insist, February even though it's only 28 days long, it manages to be the crappiest month eveeer. Every crappy thing in my life has happened in February. A bad thing you name it, February.... so I'm not a fan of this month. I just hope no more bad news comes my way!!

Well, enough procrastinating for one day!! It is Super Bowl Weekend, and the PACKS are up for the title so I must get to it.

Complications....

When I started this whole plan to escape, it's something I've always wanted, and as it turns out I need it. I convinced myself it would be the best thing, I for self growth, adventure, getting away from some crappy people that were surrounding me (from school), and getting over you; hell it had a lot to offer.

I made up a perfect plan, I convinced cognitively every part of me. That it was for the best.

And I began a process to get over you, it was great, but that lasted about 2 seconds, because in some way you attracted me right back to you. And not just in some way, but in the way that showed me that I'm important in your life. And theres nothing better than the feeling that you matter in someones life, and better yet, in the person you loves life. I'm all for the adventure, even though your irreplaceable, your the best guy in my life.

Although I know I'm doing the right thing, I must leave, I'm not turning back, I'm not leaving any space for regret. I need to move on, maybe the distance will let that happen, or maybe it will show both of us how much we may or may not need each other, there's a lot of uncertainty, and that no longer bothers me, what ever happens, will happen, and there's no inhuman force that can stop it.

I know there's a lot to gain from all this, theres a lot to learn, to rethink; but there's nothing to cry over or e upset about. It's all good. Maybe it wasn't our time, or it will never be -who knows- and there's no use wasting my time or other peoples time debating that.

The truth of the matter is that you can't put your life on hold for someone, it's not that easy. That's a selfish choice I made and learned a long time ago thanks to extraordinary circumstances.

Goodbye....

As you should know I will soon be leaving all this behind, finally after months and months of worrying and working out the paperwork and everything.... I will have a great escape in less than 15 days!!! It will be a grand jasminaen escape.... and I will have a lot to say about my adventure.

The only bad thing is that this whole escape changes a lot of things that could be....

but oh well no more bitching, hell, IT'S GONNA BE A CRAZED 2011 (hells better than '10), that I can assure. Have a good one people, bring in the '11 the best way you can.

Miscellaneous.

The title is because there's a lot to express.

First of all I have discovered that I love it when a certain guy (not just any guy) tells me he misses me!!! Yes, yes, yes!!

Ok, so today I was approved by the Department of State to go to the US for 6 months and go through the whole exchange program, I was this close to getting rejected, but thanks to the smart advice, I was accepted. I will not be an illegal immigrant when my visa expires, I promise, no worries.

On the other hand, I have found the best quote for all the mediocre people, that have once been mentioned in this blog: "The difference between a successful person and others is not a lack of strength, not a lack of knowledge, but rather a lack of will."

A proper introduction

Lately I have been listening to a whole lot of ROBYN, and I found the best way to

start a curriculum:

ROBYN- Curriculum Vitae

ROBYN (in her jacuzzi): Why you stupid I told you no eating in my jacuzzi....

(Over the phone): Listen: I want rain, thunder and some hells bells... Just do it

You can't stop it You can't escape it You can't turn it off

So I'd appreciate your kind consideration in this matter

Sir or Mam would you please turn it the fuck up

Do it

Unleashed in the eastBest dressed in the west

Sorted in the north

Without a doubt in the south

The queen of queenbees

Lioness of Juda

Phoenix from the ashes risen

Undefeated undisputed featherweight champion

on all five continents

World record holder with a high score of two gazillion in Tetris

Two-time recipient of the Nobel prize for super foxiest female ever

and war time consigliere to the Cosa NostraShe split the storm, invented the x-ray, the cure for AIDS, and the surprise blindfold greeting

She performed and choreographed the fights for Bruce Lee in Enter the Dragon

and Game of death and still does stunt doubles for Jackie Chan on the weekends

She suckerpunched Einstein, outsmarted Ali, and even outsuperfreaked Rick JamesShe's the founder and CEO of Konichiwa Records

The most decorated professional field operative in the industry

and in the streets

With a perfect track record since kindergarden where she used to

whoop schoolboy ass

She's listed in section 202 of the United Nations Security Act of 1979

as being too hot to wear tight sweaters on international airspace

In this world of tension pressure and pain

she is known by men and women of all origin and faith

for her wisdom, compassion, and relentless

determination in the quest to get paid

I WANT TO DO IT ALL

Finally...... after months of changes and waiting.

I'm almost there, after being tricked...... taken back and forth (like the operator please song) from the University of Wisconsin- Madison, Wisconsin- River Falls, Wisconsin Whitewater, Wisconsin-Platteville, Wisconsin-Parkside, Wisconsin-Eau Claire, Wisconsin-Stout, Wisconsin-Oshkosh, or Wisconsin-Superioir.

The final tolls are in, and I must wait for the ac

ceptance letter from.... tadaaa WISCONSIN UNVIERSITY OF WHITEWATER.... yeahhh the second best option after Madison (which was not part of the agreement between my home school and the Wisconsin College system).

¡I present to you the WHITEWATER HAWK!

¡and the Whitewater GYM!

it ends once again....

I gave my self a long vacation from my blog, because things have been getting "intense" in my life. First of all, I have been sloppy, and procrastinating with my dissertation(chan chan chan), I'm not planning on changing my protocol on title, but I have been quite lazy and I haven't written any of the three chapters.

But hell thats another story. I solemnly swear I'm going to start writing this week. And I'll be updating on my subject.

Intense people shouldn't have social online networks (Twitter, Facebook, etc.) for everyones' sake. See the thing begins when someone wants to stalk another person, and starts adding friends friends, and stalking pictures, and the worse part of all: interpreting things on those pictures, statuses, relationships, etc. It's quite sick for the intense person, and for the people around him or her.

Just yesterday, on once again an all night drinking frenzy a couple of friends and I came to serious conclusions about certain types of peoples attitude. We were extremely judgmental towards people who fake and don't say how they feel. We understand that you can't always be a cynic, like at work, or when you're 40, but what if your 20 and you can't even tell someone off because you don't want people (a person whom you don't depend or need anything from) to hate you. It's better to "be liked" and keep your thoughts to yourself?? Grow some balls please, for your own good.

It became totally pathetic, when a friend told us a tale, of a guy telling him: "we also wish XX person has a bad time in her personal life, but we don't say it, we just think it" Why not say it!!! Screw it right??? I don't understand the satisfaction in keeping things inside, but I get the satisfaction in being cynical.