Im finally a Licensed Professional.

I have a license to.... practice my degree,

That makes me of 7% of the Mexican population with a license to practice their degree.... so I'm sorry, I won't be settling for less, mearly because it cost me months of my life, and years of studying so if anyone here in mexico wants me to work for a couple of pesos, sorry, I'm most certainly NOT doing it.

So the adventure begins, real life starts, and a full time job starts.... it has been a pleasure.

This might be goodbye from this blog, who knows. COLLEGE LIFE IS OFFICIALLY OVER WITH!!

The grande return.

Well, it has been an interesting 24 weeks overall. I have learned a lot about people in general.

After the grand escape I have bragged for months about, AKA break from all of this, I have realized that time does change things. But the most valuable things stay the same, it's the small insignificant things that change, the important ones might evolve but for good.

I have returned to the motherland, filled with optimistic pressure to finish my dissertation and yahllah -one of many Arabic words I've learned in the exchange program- getting a respectable job. It is time, this will be my last semester working at my University.

New York was a blast, filled with adventures, that is my city indeed, it has everything I love, politics, economics, multicultural, art, crazy folks, 24 hour subway, partaaays, hot men in the subway, and great views. This trip had it all, drunken craziness, art, sightseeing, funny moments, rockstar moments, limitless possibilities, adventures, randomness, dangerous stuff going on in the subway, shopping, etc.

The most important thing I have learned is that there is a way to avoid getting into painful or uncomfortable situations, we are not victims, we many times put ourselves in situations that in the end will be very painful. And I have made myself the promise of no longer doing that with a certain someone. When it's over, it's over and that's it.... it all has a time stamp, and ending, and expiration date and we have to live and respect it we can't prolong things, or make them last as much as we want to.

and I end with a personal quote, "If you claim to have a life, live it, don't be incongruous about it..." YMC (that is me).

juuuuayyy....

Why is it when everything is going to hell, when a lot of things are screwed over, you show up in that precise moment, are willing to listen to me, to tell me I'm right, and to even make jokes on how right I am??

That's another reason why I love you even more, it doesn't matter if it's 3 AM on a Tuesday, you listen and comfort me. You are the voice of reason when everything is just a pile of idiotic crap. I know you have done your fare share of things that have hurt me, I know I gave you power over me, I know I have also hurt you. But in the end, it doesn't matter how far you are, the time of day, you are always there, you have always been there.

You want to help humanity, you want to get rid of the crazies and the dumb, you show me how right I am. I know I can't expect things from people who don't seem to deserve it, but the fact that your voice soothes me, is worth it all the way.

---- to be continued------

Piracy.....

I have been analyzing the whole "copywrite" thing in the US throughout these last couple of months.... there has been numerous cases that pertain the piracy issue in the US. Like the guy that got finned over half a million dolla, for downloading some songs over the P2P network limewire (which eventually made the network shut down).

This reminds me of the time of Napster.... it was a great time to live, at 13 with a telephone modem computer, with AOL... good times, yes. But that didn't last.

The matter in question is, why can't people upload their files to share without making a profit off it. It's just like sharing a dvd to a friend so he can watch a movie, I'm not making a profit off it. That criteria should be used in these cases. If I upload a cd I bought so people can download it and enjoy it as much as I do, they should be able to, I'm not charging them.

For example, the latest controversy is upload servers like Megaupload, Rapidshare and Hotfile... they are really making a profit with the stuff that's uploaded, but the users aren't. The scenario is painted like so: individual A, uploads to server B content C..... individual D finds the content on the server and downloads it, but the server B gives you the option to have an account to download the content at a faster speed, so technically they aren't making a profit with the content but they are with a "service". Although in most cases, user A and D get penalized because of uploading and downloading the content, being that they aren't making any money off it. I find it quite unfair.

Don't get me wrong, I know the music industry, movie industry and tv productions are suffering, but seriously you can't blame piracy for that, that's because these industries have been trying the same models for selling content, and it's getting old for users. You really don't want to see these industries affected, but there's technological advances that allow you to record TV shows?? Really, so who's fault is it??

You should have thought of that before, because like many things in technology, there's no way back. I love technology, I will always be for it, no matter what Herbet Marcuse says in the Unidimensional Man, it is a sign of progress, and information is power. Society and it's laws are always behind technology, if you really want to regulate you have to be a lot more on the verge of the newest things. And that goes out to the governments, industries and tech companies.... so quit complaining......

Things keep moving....

It's been a while, I'm thinking of shutting down this blog because, well I don't write in it as much. I've used it to vent a lot, but now.... I just don't see the point. Ohh well, let's see, I decided not to write in February (for the most part) because, the month sucks, but now that we're in March I can do so.

Several important things have happened. First and foremost... my high school mentor died, and I was here, once again not being able to go to the service (it just brings back memories of me not being able to say goodbye). I can honestly say, that a lot is lost without him.... he was a wonderful, talented man.

On a better note, things are good here, I like it, I don't lie I do miss my life in Mexico, specially the good people in my life there. Here it's ok, but it's never the same. I talk to my friends back home as much as I can, but it's never the same. I was able to see Robyn LIVE!!! That was a wonderful experience, since I'm not going to Coachella.

The NYC plan is on, we just have to figure out where we're going to live for 15 days!!! (I'm looking forward to reuniting with the tripod... May 20th in the airport, it's going to be crazy).

On a better note, I'm better now, I've been moving on from... "my postmodern" relationship... I'm not as intense about things with him as I was when I got here, I'm starting to forgive myself for my stupidity. That's a good thing. I know it seems like I always talk about him, but he's an important part of my life that I can't ignore and let go just like that.

I do good in school, I find it easier than back home. I have good times and drinking freenzys what more can I ask for.....

Till the next time.

Angry people do stupid things

Well, I've been living here for a month now, it's great. I have a good time, I'm getting my dissertation done and going to class. I get to talk to my friends almost everyday. New York is closer by the minuet. I have a wonderful roommate.

I do like US college life, even if it's in a small town. It's quite nice, good installations, lots of activities (yes, by that I mean parties). I could seriously get use to this. I know I will hate going back to "my home country". But ohh well, that's the way life is.

On the other hand, things didn't end good at all with a guy, and I must confess that I have been angry with him and with myself since I got here. No one had to prove anything to anyone but he decided to prove something, and he sure as hell did it!! And now, we don't speak, and I'm pissed as hell. And that's when anger makes me do stupid things that only screw me over, no one else but me. It's really pathetic that out of anger I screw myself over, and more so when it's due to my anger to a guy who's having the time of his life.

I really must get that part of my life in order.

And I insist, February even though it's only 28 days long, it manages to be the crappiest month eveeer. Every crappy thing in my life has happened in February. A bad thing you name it, February.... so I'm not a fan of this month. I just hope no more bad news comes my way!!

Well, enough procrastinating for one day!! It is Super Bowl Weekend, and the PACKS are up for the title so I must get to it.

Complications....

When I started this whole plan to escape, it's something I've always wanted, and as it turns out I need it. I convinced myself it would be the best thing, I for self growth, adventure, getting away from some crappy people that were surrounding me (from school), and getting over you; hell it had a lot to offer.

I made up a perfect plan, I convinced cognitively every part of me. That it was for the best.

And I began a process to get over you, it was great, but that lasted about 2 seconds, because in some way you attracted me right back to you. And not just in some way, but in the way that showed me that I'm important in your life. And theres nothing better than the feeling that you matter in someones life, and better yet, in the person you loves life. I'm all for the adventure, even though your irreplaceable, your the best guy in my life.

Although I know I'm doing the right thing, I must leave, I'm not turning back, I'm not leaving any space for regret. I need to move on, maybe the distance will let that happen, or maybe it will show both of us how much we may or may not need each other, there's a lot of uncertainty, and that no longer bothers me, what ever happens, will happen, and there's no inhuman force that can stop it.

I know there's a lot to gain from all this, theres a lot to learn, to rethink; but there's nothing to cry over or e upset about. It's all good. Maybe it wasn't our time, or it will never be -who knows- and there's no use wasting my time or other peoples time debating that.

The truth of the matter is that you can't put your life on hold for someone, it's not that easy. That's a selfish choice I made and learned a long time ago thanks to extraordinary circumstances.

Goodbye....

As you should know I will soon be leaving all this behind, finally after months and months of worrying and working out the paperwork and everything.... I will have a great escape in less than 15 days!!! It will be a grand jasminaen escape.... and I will have a lot to say about my adventure.

The only bad thing is that this whole escape changes a lot of things that could be....

but oh well no more bitching, hell, IT'S GONNA BE A CRAZED 2011 (hells better than '10), that I can assure. Have a good one people, bring in the '11 the best way you can.

Miscellaneous.

The title is because there's a lot to express.

First of all I have discovered that I love it when a certain guy (not just any guy) tells me he misses me!!! Yes, yes, yes!!

Ok, so today I was approved by the Department of State to go to the US for 6 months and go through the whole exchange program, I was this close to getting rejected, but thanks to the smart advice, I was accepted. I will not be an illegal immigrant when my visa expires, I promise, no worries.

On the other hand, I have found the best quote for all the mediocre people, that have once been mentioned in this blog: "The difference between a successful person and others is not a lack of strength, not a lack of knowledge, but rather a lack of will."

A proper introduction

Lately I have been listening to a whole lot of ROBYN, and I found the best way to

start a curriculum:

ROBYN- Curriculum Vitae

ROBYN (in her jacuzzi): Why you stupid I told you no eating in my jacuzzi....

(Over the phone): Listen: I want rain, thunder and some hells bells... Just do it

You can't stop it You can't escape it You can't turn it off

So I'd appreciate your kind consideration in this matter

Sir or Mam would you please turn it the fuck up

Do it

Unleashed in the eastBest dressed in the west

Sorted in the north

Without a doubt in the south

The queen of queenbees

Lioness of Juda

Phoenix from the ashes risen

Undefeated undisputed featherweight champion

on all five continents

World record holder with a high score of two gazillion in Tetris

Two-time recipient of the Nobel prize for super foxiest female ever

and war time consigliere to the Cosa NostraShe split the storm, invented the x-ray, the cure for AIDS, and the surprise blindfold greeting

She performed and choreographed the fights for Bruce Lee in Enter the Dragon

and Game of death and still does stunt doubles for Jackie Chan on the weekends

She suckerpunched Einstein, outsmarted Ali, and even outsuperfreaked Rick JamesShe's the founder and CEO of Konichiwa Records

The most decorated professional field operative in the industry

and in the streets

With a perfect track record since kindergarden where she used to

whoop schoolboy ass

She's listed in section 202 of the United Nations Security Act of 1979

as being too hot to wear tight sweaters on international airspace

In this world of tension pressure and pain

she is known by men and women of all origin and faith

for her wisdom, compassion, and relentless

determination in the quest to get paid

I WANT TO DO IT ALL

Finally...... after months of changes and waiting.

I'm almost there, after being tricked...... taken back and forth (like the operator please song) from the University of Wisconsin- Madison, Wisconsin- River Falls, Wisconsin Whitewater, Wisconsin-Platteville, Wisconsin-Parkside, Wisconsin-Eau Claire, Wisconsin-Stout, Wisconsin-Oshkosh, or Wisconsin-Superioir.

The final tolls are in, and I must wait for the ac

ceptance letter from.... tadaaa WISCONSIN UNVIERSITY OF WHITEWATER.... yeahhh the second best option after Madison (which was not part of the agreement between my home school and the Wisconsin College system).

¡I present to you the WHITEWATER HAWK!

¡and the Whitewater GYM!

it ends once again....

I gave my self a long vacation from my blog, because things have been getting "intense" in my life. First of all, I have been sloppy, and procrastinating with my dissertation(chan chan chan), I'm not planning on changing my protocol on title, but I have been quite lazy and I haven't written any of the three chapters.

But hell thats another story. I solemnly swear I'm going to start writing this week. And I'll be updating on my subject.

Intense people shouldn't have social online networks (Twitter, Facebook, etc.) for everyones' sake. See the thing begins when someone wants to stalk another person, and starts adding friends friends, and stalking pictures, and the worse part of all: interpreting things on those pictures, statuses, relationships, etc. It's quite sick for the intense person, and for the people around him or her.

Just yesterday, on once again an all night drinking frenzy a couple of friends and I came to serious conclusions about certain types of peoples attitude. We were extremely judgmental towards people who fake and don't say how they feel. We understand that you can't always be a cynic, like at work, or when you're 40, but what if your 20 and you can't even tell someone off because you don't want people (a person whom you don't depend or need anything from) to hate you. It's better to "be liked" and keep your thoughts to yourself?? Grow some balls please, for your own good.

It became totally pathetic, when a friend told us a tale, of a guy telling him: "we also wish XX person has a bad time in her personal life, but we don't say it, we just think it" Why not say it!!! Screw it right??? I don't understand the satisfaction in keeping things inside, but I get the satisfaction in being cynical.

my summer so far.....

As you all know, I write a whole lot about my experiences with other people, such as.... afro -pubehair, the queen of drama and 'loves of her life', Tony Stark, my gold ol' friends etc.

Well, after a good start to yet another summer vacay, time when I can be free, and stop reading Habermas, and Maarek, to read, my most recent addiction: COMIC BOOKS!! hahah I read like 40 Ironman comics in 2 days (yes, I know.... how very poorly of me, I'll never be an intelectual, damn it -sarcastically-).

If I have learned something over the past few weeks, is that some people reside in a constant Twilight Zone (not the vampire saga), this zone is quite similar to the old tv series (because it's about people who live in the same space-time continuous as ordinary people), only that in this "zone" people don't react and act as the majority does, and they believe that there behaviour is quite norma, like taking advantage of others, or manipulating people with low self-esteem!! hahaha, it's fun

to observe it, but I don't think it would be acceptable to live it, but that makes a whole lot of people happy, just like my friend... but anywho that's another story.

And today oh so casually I was AIMing with a friend, and we came to the conclusion that WE MUST write a TV series, with English humor about an office, we would include all of the people we have met these last 4 tortuous years, then (me fantasizing in my own little Twilight Zone) we could win a Golden Globe and than all those people who inspired us!!! The mediocre, pathetic, neurotic, psicotic, sociopaths...... "Thank you all, in the end, the torture was worthwhile... you inspired our award winning comedy!" hahahahaha

one can dream!!! hahaha

My type of guy....

If you are observant, and an analyst you might have noticed that I'm extremely picky with people, and men aren't excluded from that picture, and combining my stubbornness, with my cynicism, and my love for nerdy things (like comic books, movies, computers, star wars, etc). I have always know the perfect man for me is: TONY STARK!!!

And yes, (in the movie story line, I'm aware the comic has a different line) I would be the "Pepper Pots to Tony Stark", why??? you ask??

The answer is easy:

I love a challenge (a powerful man), I enjoy cynicism coming from a man. Brains is a must, as is strategic behavior, alcoholism, and a constant party mood.

And that is why, Tony Stark is the perfect man for me!!!

Hey, at least I know my "fate"

I'm not one to believe in the supernatural or "that things happen for a reason", due to the fact that there will always be the unexplainable.

Ok, I wanted my friggin' answer so bad -after weeks and weeks of being in the LOST limbo-, I finally got it: I'll be leaving for the exchange program until January 2011, (damn it, I wanted to get the hell away from here as soon as possible), but there's certain upside to that , I'll be able to catch up on my thesis.

Which is actually a good thing, since I plan on graduating very soon, and hopefully getting a respectable job!!!

On the other hand, I must add recent events, and life lessons to this post, first of all, I find my self quite pissed off, due to treason, from a so called "friend", whom decided to open his friggin mouth and screw me over, for a chick, who'll just use him for information (about me).

I should've know this would happen, specially when someone is "surprised" by 'glamor'. Let that be a lesson to all, don't ever trust anyone who could give up a friendship "for shinny glamor, that'll never be his-hers", for the pose that is.

She had nothing on me, I was free, and now I'm more tied up than ever, "due to 'adverse' circumstances"... but bitch-please I can assure you this won't end well for any one of us 3.

Going on with "news" hahaha, I have officially become a fan of TRUE BLOOD (after seeng the 1st ans 2nd season in one week)!!! hahaha yeaah baby yeaah haha (all thanks to rob.rues).

Those who know me, know that I loooooveee TV series hahaha, and I have been know to see 'em all...... but this one is a very well elaborated story, filled with interesting characters, various subjects (hate, rascism, sex, love, drugs, etc), it's a tought story with a good production, I just hope that Twilight and Vampire Diaries fans will someday appreciate TRUE BLOOD way more!!

And on top of everything .....

Ok, so who knows what’s going to happen?? There's a situation with my exchange status, and due to ineptitude ( the person in charge of my exchange sent the papers 3 weeks after I turned them in; allowing the limit go by) and I no longer know if I’m leaving in August or January. I’m going to ight for the right which is “rightfully” mine!!! Hahaha to go in August.

But oh well, I’m confident it will all be resolved (although I’m trying not to go mad because once again I’m surrounded by douche-bags).

On the other hand, this semester is almost ovaaaa, yeaaahhh..... Wooooo haha and thinking it all over, I have learned that out of 4 classes (2 a week); which means 8 classes a week I attended 1 –out of 8-!! Hahaha why is that??? Well, my theory is: what you haven't learned in 4 years you won't learn in the "last" semester!!!

On the other hand, I enjoyed much more being and helping out while learning from my buddies from production or journalism, than with the nonintellectuals in political communication.

And as it turns out... I'm the "mastermind" behind the "future" attacks in the final presentation...the most pathetic thing about that is that I couldn't care less, I haven't even gone to my own group meetings.

Yes, that what happens when you combine: ignorant, mediocre, so called "intellectuals" in a kindergarden “competition" they try to compete with people that couldn't care less, it's much more pathetic, and they “create” competition in their minds.

"You know it makes one feel rather good deciding not to be a bitch".LADY BRETT ASHLEY FROM ERNEST HEMINGWAY’S ..... OR IN MY CASE, NOT GIVING A FLYING RATS ASS!!

Having the time of my life.....

I don't know why, but lately I have been having the time of my life!!! I have been to limitless parties, hahaha it has been a blast, I have a couple of friends to thank for that. Due to a confidentially agreement their names can not been disclosed.

There are things in life we must all get over.

But I no longer care, as Fox would say "I'm leaving anyways". "These streets will make you feel brand new".

My life philosophy

found on a bumper sticker........

I'm sorry, I'm just not the type person to put up with that....

We can be sorry for lots of things, being unfair, being intolerable, having little patience. But there are times when you give people what they have coming, there's nothing you have to be sorry for.

And here goes the hard question, what happens when you can't clear the air, you can't even give an explanation for you actions or your "little patience"??

When you know that talking this over will just make the bomb blow.... and a hell storm will come over yourself? I can't tolerate the fact that someone does something that would piss anyone off, and later on when you try to clear things up -and be specific on what pissed you off-... the person acts all innocent, and in denial while victimizing themselves, that type of shit makes me lose "my little cool". (I say little because I've been know to lose my cool and be impulsive -although I never regret it, because they surely had it coming).

On the other hand, it's quite cool when someone apologizes for shit they pulled 6 years ago, it's quite gratifying, because once again I was right when I told a person off: "One day you'll understand that you can't pull this shit on people, and you'll regret it all your life".

Taaadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.... this person, got far more than they deserved. (Much more than they deserved, but hell, it's life).

When you're right your right!!!

I know I'm very arrogant and pedantic. I can't help it, I enjoy my arrogance, and it's not something that'll change soon. Why???? Well, the answer is quite easy, I'm usually right, -about certain things-. I was right about the stupid bitch afro )#/$%$("&)!(1) and my good ol' friend had to admit it last night -at a party of course-. Because to my expierience, there's no better place to clear the air, like in a party.

He told me me: "Yes, he's not a friend, yes, he's opportunistic, and yes I don't trust him", That phrase alone made me the happiest person in the party. and I blurted out: "Was he worth us fighting over???". He quickly responded: "No he wasn't".

I know I don't have many talents, but I'm good at pin pointing people that are shitty. And I love pointing it out, and not swallowing my words.

(1) Story that I promised to tell, way back in: Another..., but it's not really worth a space in this blog. He's not even worth a space in this world hahaha.