juuuuayyy....

Why is it when everything is going to hell, when a lot of things are screwed over, you show up in that precise moment, are willing to listen to me, to tell me I'm right, and to even make jokes on how right I am??

That's another reason why I love you even more, it doesn't matter if it's 3 AM on a Tuesday, you listen and comfort me. You are the voice of reason when everything is just a pile of idiotic crap. I know you have done your fare share of things that have hurt me, I know I gave you power over me, I know I have also hurt you. But in the end, it doesn't matter how far you are, the time of day, you are always there, you have always been there.

You want to help humanity, you want to get rid of the crazies and the dumb, you show me how right I am. I know I can't expect things from people who don't seem to deserve it, but the fact that your voice soothes me, is worth it all the way.

---- to be continued------

Hey, at least I know my "fate"

I'm not one to believe in the supernatural or "that things happen for a reason", due to the fact that there will always be the unexplainable.

Ok, I wanted my friggin' answer so bad -after weeks and weeks of being in the LOST limbo-, I finally got it: I'll be leaving for the exchange program until January 2011, (damn it, I wanted to get the hell away from here as soon as possible), but there's certain upside to that , I'll be able to catch up on my thesis.

Which is actually a good thing, since I plan on graduating very soon, and hopefully getting a respectable job!!!

On the other hand, I must add recent events, and life lessons to this post, first of all, I find my self quite pissed off, due to treason, from a so called "friend", whom decided to open his friggin mouth and screw me over, for a chick, who'll just use him for information (about me).

I should've know this would happen, specially when someone is "surprised" by 'glamor'. Let that be a lesson to all, don't ever trust anyone who could give up a friendship "for shinny glamor, that'll never be his-hers", for the pose that is.

She had nothing on me, I was free, and now I'm more tied up than ever, "due to 'adverse' circumstances"... but bitch-please I can assure you this won't end well for any one of us 3.

Going on with "news" hahaha, I have officially become a fan of TRUE BLOOD (after seeng the 1st ans 2nd season in one week)!!! hahaha yeaah baby yeaah haha (all thanks to rob.rues).

Those who know me, know that I loooooveee TV series hahaha, and I have been know to see 'em all...... but this one is a very well elaborated story, filled with interesting characters, various subjects (hate, rascism, sex, love, drugs, etc), it's a tought story with a good production, I just hope that Twilight and Vampire Diaries fans will someday appreciate TRUE BLOOD way more!!

Having the time of my life.....

I don't know why, but lately I have been having the time of my life!!! I have been to limitless parties, hahaha it has been a blast, I have a couple of friends to thank for that. Due to a confidentially agreement their names can not been disclosed.

There are things in life we must all get over.

But I no longer care, as Fox would say "I'm leaving anyways". "These streets will make you feel brand new".

I'm sorry, I'm just not the type person to put up with that....

We can be sorry for lots of things, being unfair, being intolerable, having little patience. But there are times when you give people what they have coming, there's nothing you have to be sorry for.

And here goes the hard question, what happens when you can't clear the air, you can't even give an explanation for you actions or your "little patience"??

When you know that talking this over will just make the bomb blow.... and a hell storm will come over yourself? I can't tolerate the fact that someone does something that would piss anyone off, and later on when you try to clear things up -and be specific on what pissed you off-... the person acts all innocent, and in denial while victimizing themselves, that type of shit makes me lose "my little cool". (I say little because I've been know to lose my cool and be impulsive -although I never regret it, because they surely had it coming).

On the other hand, it's quite cool when someone apologizes for shit they pulled 6 years ago, it's quite gratifying, because once again I was right when I told a person off: "One day you'll understand that you can't pull this shit on people, and you'll regret it all your life".

Taaadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.... this person, got far more than they deserved. (Much more than they deserved, but hell, it's life).

When you're right your right!!!

I know I'm very arrogant and pedantic. I can't help it, I enjoy my arrogance, and it's not something that'll change soon. Why???? Well, the answer is quite easy, I'm usually right, -about certain things-. I was right about the stupid bitch afro )#/$%$("&)!(1) and my good ol' friend had to admit it last night -at a party of course-. Because to my expierience, there's no better place to clear the air, like in a party.

He told me me: "Yes, he's not a friend, yes, he's opportunistic, and yes I don't trust him", That phrase alone made me the happiest person in the party. and I blurted out: "Was he worth us fighting over???". He quickly responded: "No he wasn't".

I know I don't have many talents, but I'm good at pin pointing people that are shitty. And I love pointing it out, and not swallowing my words.

(1) Story that I promised to tell, way back in: Another..., but it's not really worth a space in this blog. He's not even worth a space in this world hahaha.

I'm leaving, but it's all "extra-official"

Yes, the looong wait, the insomnia, headaches, etc; and that's what happens when I live in doubt and uncertainty. But thanks to the truth, thats all gone now

Well, I guess I can speak freely through here, I'm leaving the country, after a lot of cryptic situations, and acting all secretive about it, I can finally say it.... I'M GOING FAR FAR AWAY FROM HERE -as Gaga and Honey Bee would say-.

Needless to say, I already know that a ton of bullshit will be said about me leaving "she was totally helped out by her teachers, she blah blah blah". But you know the best thing about it, aside from the fact than no one beat my TOEFL scores, and GPA is that: I'm leaving, and my university is going to give me a wonderful scholarship to study abroad, and you people can't do shit about it, so you can just die of liver failure.

On that same key, I have thought of a wonderful scholarship foundation: "Funds for people in need to escape and be in denial away from their hometowns". Imagine that, you have an ex- you can't get over, or a crush you can't seem to break, or you simply want to get away, we'll fund you.... you would just have to write a very good statement of purpose, explaining why you must get away from, the best cases -or might I say the worst ones- win the scholarships!!!

Constant Change??

Throughout the years, you realize that things can change pretty quickly, from friendship to hobbies, to points of view, but now I realized, that's not my case. Sure, I've grown, but I think and act the same way I did 5 yeas ago, the same things still piss me off, I make the same mistakes, I'm still a huge cynic, and bullshit about the same stuff. I don't know if that's a good thing or bad thing.

Those that make me more congruent? Or does that only mean "that I grew up so fast" and just sat there.

On the other hand, I'm starting to get nervous, because in a week I'll know if my life will drastically change during the next semester, yes.... I'll know in a week if I'll be leaving the country for something better, and most importantly I'll be leaving, my god awful classmates behind, the bull that surrounds me on a daily basis.

I really do need this break, -I hope that destiny understands that- it might make me move on, since I'm kind of stuck in a "rut", and it's starting to feel so god darn comfortable, and that's too scary. And you know why!!!!!

To all my friends, the true ones, the ones that will actually be happy for me please wish me luck, and to all those who are going to bullshit there way into talking crap about someone else's good fortune, screw y'all you envious, mediocre, useless pieces of crap!! hahaha