Goodbye....

As you should know I will soon be leaving all this behind, finally after months and months of worrying and working out the paperwork and everything.... I will have a great escape in less than 15 days!!! It will be a grand jasminaen escape.... and I will have a lot to say about my adventure.

The only bad thing is that this whole escape changes a lot of things that could be....

but oh well no more bitching, hell, IT'S GONNA BE A CRAZED 2011 (hells better than '10), that I can assure. Have a good one people, bring in the '11 the best way you can.

Miscellaneous.

The title is because there's a lot to express.

First of all I have discovered that I love it when a certain guy (not just any guy) tells me he misses me!!! Yes, yes, yes!!

Ok, so today I was approved by the Department of State to go to the US for 6 months and go through the whole exchange program, I was this close to getting rejected, but thanks to the smart advice, I was accepted. I will not be an illegal immigrant when my visa expires, I promise, no worries.

On the other hand, I have found the best quote for all the mediocre people, that have once been mentioned in this blog: "The difference between a successful person and others is not a lack of strength, not a lack of knowledge, but rather a lack of will."

A proper introduction

Lately I have been listening to a whole lot of ROBYN, and I found the best way to

start a curriculum:

ROBYN- Curriculum Vitae

ROBYN (in her jacuzzi): Why you stupid I told you no eating in my jacuzzi....

(Over the phone): Listen: I want rain, thunder and some hells bells... Just do it

You can't stop it You can't escape it You can't turn it off

So I'd appreciate your kind consideration in this matter

Sir or Mam would you please turn it the fuck up

Do it

Unleashed in the eastBest dressed in the west

Sorted in the north

Without a doubt in the south

The queen of queenbees

Lioness of Juda

Phoenix from the ashes risen

Undefeated undisputed featherweight champion

on all five continents

World record holder with a high score of two gazillion in Tetris

Two-time recipient of the Nobel prize for super foxiest female ever

and war time consigliere to the Cosa NostraShe split the storm, invented the x-ray, the cure for AIDS, and the surprise blindfold greeting

She performed and choreographed the fights for Bruce Lee in Enter the Dragon

and Game of death and still does stunt doubles for Jackie Chan on the weekends

She suckerpunched Einstein, outsmarted Ali, and even outsuperfreaked Rick JamesShe's the founder and CEO of Konichiwa Records

The most decorated professional field operative in the industry

and in the streets

With a perfect track record since kindergarden where she used to

whoop schoolboy ass

She's listed in section 202 of the United Nations Security Act of 1979

as being too hot to wear tight sweaters on international airspace

In this world of tension pressure and pain

she is known by men and women of all origin and faith

for her wisdom, compassion, and relentless

determination in the quest to get paid

I WANT TO DO IT ALL

Finally...... after months of changes and waiting.

I'm almost there, after being tricked...... taken back and forth (like the operator please song) from the University of Wisconsin- Madison, Wisconsin- River Falls, Wisconsin Whitewater, Wisconsin-Platteville, Wisconsin-Parkside, Wisconsin-Eau Claire, Wisconsin-Stout, Wisconsin-Oshkosh, or Wisconsin-Superioir.

The final tolls are in, and I must wait for the ac

ceptance letter from.... tadaaa WISCONSIN UNVIERSITY OF WHITEWATER.... yeahhh the second best option after Madison (which was not part of the agreement between my home school and the Wisconsin College system).

¡I present to you the WHITEWATER HAWK!

¡and the Whitewater GYM!

it ends once again....

I gave my self a long vacation from my blog, because things have been getting "intense" in my life. First of all, I have been sloppy, and procrastinating with my dissertation(chan chan chan), I'm not planning on changing my protocol on title, but I have been quite lazy and I haven't written any of the three chapters.

But hell thats another story. I solemnly swear I'm going to start writing this week. And I'll be updating on my subject.

Intense people shouldn't have social online networks (Twitter, Facebook, etc.) for everyones' sake. See the thing begins when someone wants to stalk another person, and starts adding friends friends, and stalking pictures, and the worse part of all: interpreting things on those pictures, statuses, relationships, etc. It's quite sick for the intense person, and for the people around him or her.

Just yesterday, on once again an all night drinking frenzy a couple of friends and I came to serious conclusions about certain types of peoples attitude. We were extremely judgmental towards people who fake and don't say how they feel. We understand that you can't always be a cynic, like at work, or when you're 40, but what if your 20 and you can't even tell someone off because you don't want people (a person whom you don't depend or need anything from) to hate you. It's better to "be liked" and keep your thoughts to yourself?? Grow some balls please, for your own good.

It became totally pathetic, when a friend told us a tale, of a guy telling him: "we also wish XX person has a bad time in her personal life, but we don't say it, we just think it" Why not say it!!! Screw it right??? I don't understand the satisfaction in keeping things inside, but I get the satisfaction in being cynical.

my summer so far.....

As you all know, I write a whole lot about my experiences with other people, such as.... afro -pubehair, the queen of drama and 'loves of her life', Tony Stark, my gold ol' friends etc.

Well, after a good start to yet another summer vacay, time when I can be free, and stop reading Habermas, and Maarek, to read, my most recent addiction: COMIC BOOKS!! hahah I read like 40 Ironman comics in 2 days (yes, I know.... how very poorly of me, I'll never be an intelectual, damn it -sarcastically-).

If I have learned something over the past few weeks, is that some people reside in a constant Twilight Zone (not the vampire saga), this zone is quite similar to the old tv series (because it's about people who live in the same space-time continuous as ordinary people), only that in this "zone" people don't react and act as the majority does, and they believe that there behaviour is quite norma, like taking advantage of others, or manipulating people with low self-esteem!! hahaha, it's fun

to observe it, but I don't think it would be acceptable to live it, but that makes a whole lot of people happy, just like my friend... but anywho that's another story.

And today oh so casually I was AIMing with a friend, and we came to the conclusion that WE MUST write a TV series, with English humor about an office, we would include all of the people we have met these last 4 tortuous years, then (me fantasizing in my own little Twilight Zone) we could win a Golden Globe and than all those people who inspired us!!! The mediocre, pathetic, neurotic, psicotic, sociopaths...... "Thank you all, in the end, the torture was worthwhile... you inspired our award winning comedy!" hahahahaha

one can dream!!! hahaha

My type of guy....

If you are observant, and an analyst you might have noticed that I'm extremely picky with people, and men aren't excluded from that picture, and combining my stubbornness, with my cynicism, and my love for nerdy things (like comic books, movies, computers, star wars, etc). I have always know the perfect man for me is: TONY STARK!!!

And yes, (in the movie story line, I'm aware the comic has a different line) I would be the "Pepper Pots to Tony Stark", why??? you ask??

The answer is easy:

I love a challenge (a powerful man), I enjoy cynicism coming from a man. Brains is a must, as is strategic behavior, alcoholism, and a constant party mood.

And that is why, Tony Stark is the perfect man for me!!!

Hey, at least I know my "fate"

I'm not one to believe in the supernatural or "that things happen for a reason", due to the fact that there will always be the unexplainable.

Ok, I wanted my friggin' answer so bad -after weeks and weeks of being in the LOST limbo-, I finally got it: I'll be leaving for the exchange program until January 2011, (damn it, I wanted to get the hell away from here as soon as possible), but there's certain upside to that , I'll be able to catch up on my thesis.

Which is actually a good thing, since I plan on graduating very soon, and hopefully getting a respectable job!!!

On the other hand, I must add recent events, and life lessons to this post, first of all, I find my self quite pissed off, due to treason, from a so called "friend", whom decided to open his friggin mouth and screw me over, for a chick, who'll just use him for information (about me).

I should've know this would happen, specially when someone is "surprised" by 'glamor'. Let that be a lesson to all, don't ever trust anyone who could give up a friendship "for shinny glamor, that'll never be his-hers", for the pose that is.

She had nothing on me, I was free, and now I'm more tied up than ever, "due to 'adverse' circumstances"... but bitch-please I can assure you this won't end well for any one of us 3.

Going on with "news" hahaha, I have officially become a fan of TRUE BLOOD (after seeng the 1st ans 2nd season in one week)!!! hahaha yeaah baby yeaah haha (all thanks to rob.rues).

Those who know me, know that I loooooveee TV series hahaha, and I have been know to see 'em all...... but this one is a very well elaborated story, filled with interesting characters, various subjects (hate, rascism, sex, love, drugs, etc), it's a tought story with a good production, I just hope that Twilight and Vampire Diaries fans will someday appreciate TRUE BLOOD way more!!

And on top of everything .....

Ok, so who knows what’s going to happen?? There's a situation with my exchange status, and due to ineptitude ( the person in charge of my exchange sent the papers 3 weeks after I turned them in; allowing the limit go by) and I no longer know if I’m leaving in August or January. I’m going to ight for the right which is “rightfully” mine!!! Hahaha to go in August.

But oh well, I’m confident it will all be resolved (although I’m trying not to go mad because once again I’m surrounded by douche-bags).

On the other hand, this semester is almost ovaaaa, yeaaahhh..... Wooooo haha and thinking it all over, I have learned that out of 4 classes (2 a week); which means 8 classes a week I attended 1 –out of 8-!! Hahaha why is that??? Well, my theory is: what you haven't learned in 4 years you won't learn in the "last" semester!!!

On the other hand, I enjoyed much more being and helping out while learning from my buddies from production or journalism, than with the nonintellectuals in political communication.

And as it turns out... I'm the "mastermind" behind the "future" attacks in the final presentation...the most pathetic thing about that is that I couldn't care less, I haven't even gone to my own group meetings.

Yes, that what happens when you combine: ignorant, mediocre, so called "intellectuals" in a kindergarden “competition" they try to compete with people that couldn't care less, it's much more pathetic, and they “create” competition in their minds.

"You know it makes one feel rather good deciding not to be a bitch".LADY BRETT ASHLEY FROM ERNEST HEMINGWAY’S ..... OR IN MY CASE, NOT GIVING A FLYING RATS ASS!!

Having the time of my life.....

I don't know why, but lately I have been having the time of my life!!! I have been to limitless parties, hahaha it has been a blast, I have a couple of friends to thank for that. Due to a confidentially agreement their names can not been disclosed.

There are things in life we must all get over.

But I no longer care, as Fox would say "I'm leaving anyways". "These streets will make you feel brand new".

My life philosophy

found on a bumper sticker........

I'm sorry, I'm just not the type person to put up with that....

We can be sorry for lots of things, being unfair, being intolerable, having little patience. But there are times when you give people what they have coming, there's nothing you have to be sorry for.

And here goes the hard question, what happens when you can't clear the air, you can't even give an explanation for you actions or your "little patience"??

When you know that talking this over will just make the bomb blow.... and a hell storm will come over yourself? I can't tolerate the fact that someone does something that would piss anyone off, and later on when you try to clear things up -and be specific on what pissed you off-... the person acts all innocent, and in denial while victimizing themselves, that type of shit makes me lose "my little cool". (I say little because I've been know to lose my cool and be impulsive -although I never regret it, because they surely had it coming).

On the other hand, it's quite cool when someone apologizes for shit they pulled 6 years ago, it's quite gratifying, because once again I was right when I told a person off: "One day you'll understand that you can't pull this shit on people, and you'll regret it all your life".

Taaadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.... this person, got far more than they deserved. (Much more than they deserved, but hell, it's life).

When you're right your right!!!

I know I'm very arrogant and pedantic. I can't help it, I enjoy my arrogance, and it's not something that'll change soon. Why???? Well, the answer is quite easy, I'm usually right, -about certain things-. I was right about the stupid bitch afro )#/$%$("&)!(1) and my good ol' friend had to admit it last night -at a party of course-. Because to my expierience, there's no better place to clear the air, like in a party.

He told me me: "Yes, he's not a friend, yes, he's opportunistic, and yes I don't trust him", That phrase alone made me the happiest person in the party. and I blurted out: "Was he worth us fighting over???". He quickly responded: "No he wasn't".

I know I don't have many talents, but I'm good at pin pointing people that are shitty. And I love pointing it out, and not swallowing my words.

(1) Story that I promised to tell, way back in: Another..., but it's not really worth a space in this blog. He's not even worth a space in this world hahaha.

I'm leaving, but it's all "extra-official"

Yes, the looong wait, the insomnia, headaches, etc; and that's what happens when I live in doubt and uncertainty. But thanks to the truth, thats all gone now

Well, I guess I can speak freely through here, I'm leaving the country, after a lot of cryptic situations, and acting all secretive about it, I can finally say it.... I'M GOING FAR FAR AWAY FROM HERE -as Gaga and Honey Bee would say-.

Needless to say, I already know that a ton of bullshit will be said about me leaving "she was totally helped out by her teachers, she blah blah blah". But you know the best thing about it, aside from the fact than no one beat my TOEFL scores, and GPA is that: I'm leaving, and my university is going to give me a wonderful scholarship to study abroad, and you people can't do shit about it, so you can just die of liver failure.

On that same key, I have thought of a wonderful scholarship foundation: "Funds for people in need to escape and be in denial away from their hometowns". Imagine that, you have an ex- you can't get over, or a crush you can't seem to break, or you simply want to get away, we'll fund you.... you would just have to write a very good statement of purpose, explaining why you must get away from, the best cases -or might I say the worst ones- win the scholarships!!!

by the way

After the 4 am lesson I no longer owe anybody anything, and there's no better feeling than that. I can finally close the "Abraham Lincoln" file..... Thank y'all who helped me out.

Constant Change??

Throughout the years, you realize that things can change pretty quickly, from friendship to hobbies, to points of view, but now I realized, that's not my case. Sure, I've grown, but I think and act the same way I did 5 yeas ago, the same things still piss me off, I make the same mistakes, I'm still a huge cynic, and bullshit about the same stuff. I don't know if that's a good thing or bad thing.

Those that make me more congruent? Or does that only mean "that I grew up so fast" and just sat there.

On the other hand, I'm starting to get nervous, because in a week I'll know if my life will drastically change during the next semester, yes.... I'll know in a week if I'll be leaving the country for something better, and most importantly I'll be leaving, my god awful classmates behind, the bull that surrounds me on a daily basis.

I really do need this break, -I hope that destiny understands that- it might make me move on, since I'm kind of stuck in a "rut", and it's starting to feel so god darn comfortable, and that's too scary. And you know why!!!!!

To all my friends, the true ones, the ones that will actually be happy for me please wish me luck, and to all those who are going to bullshit there way into talking crap about someone else's good fortune, screw y'all you envious, mediocre, useless pieces of crap!! hahaha

In a month......

This next month will feel eternal, I'm going to wait until the end of April, and I'll know if I'm staying or going. I must admit it's quite scary.... I mean I've already turned in all the papers in other to leave the "crap" hole(1) for about 5 months... some people are happy for me and wishing me the best, and others, not precisely.

But Ohhh well, the only thing that counts is my happiness... and my future, but above all my piece of mind. I know that some folks think "why the hell is she going to leave in the last semester, and miss out on the whole 'graduation' thang"....

The answer is quite simple, the few people who I care about, and I know I'll keep in touch with, I know that they feel the same way. And on the other hand, I already had the whole prom experience, with people I care about, people I love, people I go out with, true friends; and that's definitely how I feel about the shitty ass classmates. I don't feel like having a "hypocrite" experience when I graduate, hell I've been congruent for 4 years, and my incongruity isn't going to start in the last days of college life. o the best excuse is to "be out of the country".

If people weren't so envious, and frustrated I would care a little more, and even help out, but people, like such are crap, and that's the biggest lesson I have learned in college, it's the bigger picture and much more insightful than what I ever learned in a classroom. Most of the people I've come across aren't worth it!!!! Puff I can finally say it without feeling guilty! hahahaha Because it's true!! hahaaha


(1) When I say crap hole I'm referring to all the crappy people I'm forced to socialize with, and I try so hard to ignore.... but my hateful attitude is much bigger than myself. And those people (99.9%) know who they are. Because they feel the same way.

Career Move..... Crisis Managment!

One of the best teachers I’ve ever had throughout my college career once wisely said: “If you are ever going to do something illegal never admit it. If you say you’re going to do something illegal, you must deny it, if you are stupid enough to right it down, you must deny it, but even worse, if you are incredibly stupid enough to write it down, and sign it…..DENY IT UNTIL YOU DIE!!!"

I have never been one to deny things, but….. There are certain “special circumstances”.

I must admit, I’m quote surprised that a certain event has just had its three year anniversary, and things are looking up, I didn’t get all pitiable and pathetic.

Nice Hangover Sunday y’all.

I love being cryptic.....

Cryptic and non specific is something I enjoy specially when it's about the "uncomfortable flourecent-pink elephant" in the room, that takes up space but no one wants to discuss and deal with it.

"It is what it has always been, it will always be, and I can't help it....."

I bet no one can interpret the true meaning of that!!!!

everything we do is to avoid the inevitable....

Last Monday, I was at Wendy's enjoying my double bacon-cheeseburger, and talking to a couple of friends, a very adept friend told us "everything we do is to avoid death, from eating to sleeping" and I added "we live trying to avoid death, but it's the only thing that's written since the moment we are born".

It's true, but that doesn't mean we can't enjoy our time here..... and there's definitely nothing better to enjoy our time being intoxicated with happiness.

And on Thursday, talking to another friend we concluded that some of us live daring death, and we might just be the last ones to leave!! That's how ironic life can be, and that's precisely whats to love about it.

But what's more ironic??? Living it to avoid it??? or Living it daring it???

By the way, after almost 22 years, I have found my true calling: teaching lessons to all those ignorant cowards, who think they are all that and more. My job is to show them "ohh contraire my friend" hahaha.

And just to avoid all my "lemas", I must add, that I'm almost done paying my dues!!! Let that be a lesson to all: when you need the money, you work your ass off for it, you can't wait for it to land from some airplane full of cash.